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tIiLIiBSS&S3.IIS,3:
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With.twideat flower:: enri ch'd,
Froth variolis gardens. cull'd•iuith Mare:"
BYTGONE' YEARS.
"Call then, let me flee them:"
I Re them now—l Ric them all--
The shadowy train of by-gqne days:—
o n M em ory' s mar see they fall' '
With still increasing rays. •
"Th'eplaymates of my childhood's hoiirs!
With undiniri'd eye and iMlCtirnt cheek-
Nature's young and starry flowers!
I almost hear them speak.
And that sweet girl! now woman grown,—
Now Vanishing with fairy flight— - •
Like blcom and blossom, fruit all gone--
Alas: t e early blight.
Coin ninn of maturer years! • ,
With laurel'd brow,—where Genius placed
The aeal which each heart endears,
• 'And never was disgraced.
I see Ghee too! whose every look
Imparted joys of' purest i:sys;:—
Thou'rt gone—a rose loot:oil-a hronk.—
Form'd, seen, then swept' away
On, on still glide the airy crowd!
With'ilofseless foot Step still - they innrr'•'
The good; the bright„-the sad, the pr'oud,
One ''hallowed form" - of Love! • .
A gloom is swelling on my brain;
A dprknesa deepens in my breast..
Tina thus recall'd, the mirror'd train
Should sadden a( the-b—esr:-
'name better fir the glass to eliiver,
Than joys rcviv'd to dim with tears {
To steep in Lethe's suave forever
All thoughts of by-gone years.
MI.SM MILTOL'AtudO.
THE PALSIED HEART.
By the arithoi• pf "Loosing' and It inn i ng."
".113, heartbeat tiot,itfelt not then."—:llo:rroontny
,• 1 •
"'Why do melancholy, my.dear Susan?"
said
. Mr,AtwoOd, as ho orew a chair and
seated himself by big wife: "Surely, it is
not an affliction to have a daughter, well
married—especially ivhen the kouse of her
husband is scarcely milaironobat of
her parents!" -44
"Yet you: will acknowledge, George,"
replied !qrs. Atwood, "ihatiet a datighters.
:prospects be ever so . .flattering, There is
much to.touch a mother's' •heart when she
resigns her child to another. It is, in ade
gree sexe_ t ing one of nantre's.,_stramgest
' .ties,. and it could not be:- done without a
.pang, even were we 'able to foresee:that
,her happiness, and comfort world' not be
Buroh - this - pointilierels al;
ways a fearful doubt. The event-only can
prove, wbether or not a man will make a
goodlitusband; and even should he do 'so,
in the
_common acceptation Of the term ,there
is still a doubt whether ho and his wife are
so matched as to make each other happy
- "Well, my dearrsaid.Mr. Atwood,
my own part, I feel no misgivings relative
to Helen's happiness, and' am very •sorry
you are inclined to anticipate trouble. In
Mr. Howard I - have perfect • confidence.-
His character is unblemished,. and his prin
ciples such,as every one must respect and
approve: - I do not suppose he is perfect;
neither is Helen; but 1 think they truly love
"each other, and this will enable them to
overlook and excuse each other's defects."
"I doubt-not the rectitude or firmness of
his principles," said .Mrs: Atwood; "but
must confesslhave sonie fears that his tem
per may not be suited to Helen's. - Some
trifling circumstances have, led me to..2p
prebend that he may be self-willed and ob
stinate," •
"Firm, ydu mean, my dear," said Mr.
Atwood; "and I hope 'he will be so. It
will do much to. improve Helen; for y.ou
know that want of firmness is one o'f the
defects of her character." -
, "And beside," said Mrs. Atwood, "I
have ever thought him somewhat too grave
for a7mtiii Of five-and-twenty. Volatility,
I shOuld as much dislike as you would;
but Mr. Howard would please me better
had he a little more buoyancy and cheer
fulness.--- I- fear he will be stern."
'Here, too," said Mr. Atwood, "I have
thought that a kind. providence selected the
very man for our daughter!. His sedate
ness will temper her vivacity; and her,'
sometimes, too thoughtless gaiety."
"I am sorry you_see o eo many faults in
Helen," replied Mrs. Atwood.
"And is marriage like death," said Mr.
Atwood, "that you forget them all, as soon.
as she is separated from you? Have We
not always seen these defects, and labored
to correct .them? know her good quali
ties too. She is affectionate, kind, gentle,
end forgiving, and always Willing to con
fess a fault, though somewhat too apt to re
peat it. I know, too, that she' has a fund
of deck feeling, hid under a somewhat
carele.se.exterior; and that her -temper . was
cast in nature's finest mould. All this I
know, and much more; and doubt not that
Mr. Howard will see these things as clear
ly, and , appreciate, them ge highly, as I do.
So cheer up, my, dear 'Susan, and instead
df spending this weaning' time from your
child in sombre forebodinp,'he grateful to
a kind Providence for giving her such a
husband, and trust her confidingly
: to his
care."
While the mother's heart was thus anxi
ous concerning the future happiness of her
daughter, Mr. Howard and his youthful
bride were' as happy as the dearest friend
could . Wish them. They - had been married
bul'a week or two; yet even in ,so short a
space of time, Uppeatinces indicated that
Mr Attrood's-prediction-was-likely_to-be
verifill. • 'Helen never been half so
happy inlet life - before, and never before
was. site half so sedate. She learned by
experience" that the happiness - of. the
heart is neither-noisy nor mirthful;'tht it
induces, ,Serietisness 'rather than'
Her husba.ndWas perfect in her eyes, True,
he was rather grave for go young.n man,
and smiled, but seldom;' -but' when he did
smile, it dap like ; the • breaking- forth• Ora
sun-beinriiMpartin - g
-Bet gravg.orotherwise, he Was. all that sh?
wished•-binrto be;:,-..Her respect - for him
equalled'her•lcivei Itoth -were entire. He
treated her - with a dignified-tenderness,Und
left her notlihm • to • aelr.•• — • • • • -
• Bui:time-jmovve no. indulgenee,not even
to the most hdppy,l.Who'wbuld gladly lay
a'finger on his flight-to lengthen the - golden •
.niinnentf.' - The first months .ofitridded
life soon haste a way 2 Yleetint months they,
are, anti rnsh, by to
. jOift.the past,'eternity
and in their train come the ,cares, the du
tieh, the triali,..perebance, the miseries o
.
.
__ - __The_yoilth(orbride.commenced her Mar
, tied life with adetertuma.tionto ideale litil•
husband in' ever,s7lhing; her. deportment,
her hpliarel . ,'and her house-keeping. About
the first, two,she felt , no anxiety; that Whic,h
had won; would certainly retain him; and
"she would be careful not to fall .info that
species of negligence which but too often
follows the marriage ceremony, and which
is so' well calculated to produce , coldness,
if not disguSt.'
s tlis domestic arrangements
ere a more serious matter: • She was but
little more . than eighteen, and though her
education in this partioulai branch had not
been itegleeted,•she yet' had little skill in
that department where experience is soim
portant. She Made many mistakes, and
would have' made , many 'more,' but. fer The
nearneighborhood of ,her' Mother,: whom
she frequently consulted, and whom site
'Blond better than twenty books on domes-,
tic economy. But Helen did her best, and
hoped io - titne - that that.woulthbecome easy
• which was -.now so -diilimilt-- - As before
said, she, resolv4te . please herlushand in
all thfngs, and doubles!, not- loran instant
that he would be equally solicitmis to please
her. On one poitit she. anticipated a 'dif
ference. lien parents . had so plaiely told .
her of her faults, and had labored so sedti;
lously to ebTreet - themOhit she was con-
J:eidusof. being far from whht. She ought to
be; consetincntly,lii-r hoshand would have
much to overlook and forgive . ; he; on the
contrary, waS pe_correct,' so perfect, _that.
she would have little or n othing- to ecuso.
But he had loved her, and sought her for a
wife, knowing her to be w very imperfect
creature, nod would nor,,that love lead' him
to pardon all errors—the More readily, as
they Would net be wilful'?
. Unquestionably
it would.
With views, awl feelings,, and designs
like these, Helen_ ]toward began her_mar
ried life; - and she conformed to her plan as
nearly; perhaps, as one's action seder Con
forms to one's resolution; one's practice to •
one's theory., True, she did notfind her
self hlways: .
( 31k4 -Ai AC FI,
•
`‘gailing on a . -snriktner SMI,
When not a breath of Ontl flies o'er its mince."'
Some .of her cares were irksome; some
of her self-denials not a little painful. She
It
foundr - Mr Howard exeeedhigly particular. ,
This. he vever, did net surprise her;, it was
what. e had anticipated. - ' Wow could one .
so . feet kn. all Iltingsprinciples, man
' ..s, 'taste—fad of being
. partjcularl Ilut
then it: made it .tbaieult to please him;' and, !
oftentimes, she was in dotibi;whether•tl i t e e
thing she derided to do, ilri the, manner of
doing it,,would be agreeablelo him or not.
When possible; she always consulted him
on Points: where ~she supposed he would
have: any chnice, - . but.frequently _she was
obliged to - ict,when to consult - Kin Was
out of the' question; and somehow it - seem
-iti--10-4ielenr—that—almOt—eitorytiliiig—ii
did. according to her own judgment or taste,
was directly adVerse. - to -his.
She had not lived with her husband many
- mmithsTbefore sh - 0 - ilearned - tharby a prirti- -
. Ltilar closing of his lips she couldtell when
he was displeased.' • For herself, she was
a child in feeling, mild in temper ; gentle
and faseitibting in - manner; and after she
had beCOme acquainted with
,the -peculiari
tieS of Mr. Howard's disposition, Isle
would, in his motif - en:A - of displeasure,twine
her antis around his nevi:, asked for an ex
planation, confess her fault, and -beg for
giveness. An affectionate kiss from him
would dissipate all her uneasiness, and lead
to fresh efforts to please; ' ' .
' • Mr. Howard did not always wait to leave
.his displeasure or disapprobation detected.
AS time rolled on, and the bride was lost
in the wife, lie was not slow very plainly
to tell her when he saw aught amiss; but
,the same process of reconciliation followed,
and all was well again: Though Mr. How
ard could blame, he never praiser!. Ile
was 'of the opinion that . praise is always
injurious. Ile was not alone in that be
lief. Many persons seem to think, that
even the most merited commendation must
induce vanity and pride. Pity it is that
some who have embraced this view, were
not equally afraid of continual censure, or
even of slander and detraction!
Let no one think, from the preceding
picture, that Helen was an unhappy wife.
She was far from it. - No one could be un
happy who loved and,respeeted a husband
as she loved and respected Mr. Howard,
and who dciubt6il not that her affection Was
reciproelted. There were Only occasion
al clouds - that crossed the land-scapo, mak
ing, the returning sunbeams still brighter.
Years as well 'as months glide away; and
when Helen was four-atid-twepty, she was.
the mother of a son, a daughter, and an
other son, In the meantime, she had suf
fered a severe alllietion.., Her mother had
' been taken away by death; but site lived
long enough to have all her fear's allayed as
to pee daughter's domestic felicity. -She
saw nothing, heard nothing to s lead her to
doubt that it was as perfect as could be ex
pected in this imperfect'word. Indeed,
she knew not, that so far as connubial hap
, pinesss was concerned, a elbud had ever
passed over her,
,daughter's path; and it
was long-ere Helen herself:was aware that
the clouds were darker and-more frequent
—the sun-shine rarer, and Of shorter con
tinuance. It was
. by slow degrees she
learned, that site must submit to her hus
band in everything. - The Spending an
.evening in a neighbor's house—even the
most trifling
.matters of taste, must be as
touch subjected to KO control as the most
important transactions eflife. Helen cheer
fully acknOwledged her husband's supreni
acy. Her mother had taught her, and the
Bible taught her, that authority belonged'
to hint; that it was--her duty, and would be
for her happiness;te obey him in all things.
Her, a ff ectionate heart prompted her to this
course; but as She was a human being,she
naturallyliad tastes and inclinations of her
otivn; and these were not always, of course,
in exact accordance with those of another.
Sometimes, in case of collision, she Could
not help foeling that if she yielded on - all'
important -points, Mr. Howard might ocea- •
sionally yield in trifles,- , "If," she argued
with a sigh, ”he _finds it so hard to con
form to the wishes of another sometimes,
why cannot he realize how -difficult It is
for me , to do it alivay,v?" If thehall-form
ed thoughtarose in hemind, th, iti her hus
bhnd •was selfish,'she - insta . ntl3f banished
ii. "Oh; no," . she Would say, "he iss,not
selfish..- - . ,Men' aro used to anthority,.and
are not aware what it, pftentimes•costs the
subject. y I suppose on .this point theyare
all mitaitlike t '.- Perfect' good nature,
and-an unWillingnehttle•detraA anYthing
from- the . perfection with which
_she had in-.
rested . Mt, HoWard,led to this eotielosien'.
Had .Helen's own father, entered:her mind .
at that moment, - She 'must hive acknOvi
leageff that' etween soine7ncti.thernwas a
striking contrast. . .
. .
With this ,, : however,-Heieli could have
REM
... . . .
' get along Veg , . well.' She , bad as little ot
get
tiny of her •`ePeciesil'and - : if; In
' the moment: of `trial,. het Albert wouldzehol;
the feeling was soon gene,)and she yielded
with grace amkelmerfulnesif. , That which
- 1 1 1as - mucirharder - to - beari--was;:that-as-Mr..-
HowarA grew elder, it was Mora 'difficult
to appease hii'dmpleaStire; and sometimes,
Helen would_have.tosask . forgiveness,' for
,some,-perhaps; very trifling inadvertency,
two or three times before the kiss of ;cordial
retionciliatioti would•be 'granted.. Besides
this, she panted for coinmendation. Froth
her own heart it .flowed spontaneously;
and however strong Mr- Howard's objec-,
tion might be to bestowing praise on an
other,,
believer manifested any repugnanao
to receiving
iving
it ,himself., _ Helen loved to
praise her luithatil; 'she hived to repeat to
'him the praise bestowed by others ; it
greatly'mureased • her .happiness. Hu(
when her special and sometimes lalwriou's.
efforts to do that which she thought would'
give Mr.. Howard peculiar satisfaction,'
would fail of calling forth one word of sore=
inendation—one look of grateful satisfaa
tion—Trail even of attracting observation,
-herheart would' sink with disappointment
—and_to_bc_gitile_JlßMVaitit;34_.indispen
sible. that she 'should I . )e per)! forgetful. •
-But WaS7Mr. Howard the implacable be
ing his wife Was willing to believe him?
On the contrary, • he .. was
. far front it as
other well principled men. But he ne
ver conressed_a fault to human.. auditor
,
and tiftentimeh, when he had given Tidiest'
just cause'of complaint;'if slfe manifested .
.:-.not' by -upbraiding, (of that her nature
was, ineapable)—hutas arr affectionate wife .
may, with all propriety, express diSplea
sure toward her husband, he resented it in
a high degree; and many ,t . es . did - she,
with 'sighs and tears, sue f t °, forgiveness,
7
when he alone was in faul .. Site' was - al ,
ways prone to believe h "self to. blame,
and peace she must have, on any terms—
or be wretched.'
The power of pleasing, or giving sails=
faction, seems to be taken from us, just in
proportion as we despair of exercising. it.
Helen was almost hopeless of securing
her 'husband's apprdbation, and =her ':ileart
was depressed by discouragement.", She
remitted none of her efforts to please—it
had become a habit of her mind, —bot.
.she
.was scarcely conscious that her endeavors
now arose less from the hope of receiving'
commendatiou; than from a desire' to es
cape reproof and censure.. .
For thefirst three years of Helen's mar- .
ried .life:,. the sunshine had ,greatly prepon
- dented over the-Clouds; for the last three,
the clotls•had been gradually gaining the
preponderance over the sunshine; 'and be.;
fore another closed, they gathered over her
head, to be dispersed again,'onty when the
sun of life was sitting., - -•• .
In some• Way.,. in Which no principle of
_right or_wrong_ was - invelved;i:lntt ---- wifirre
the opinion or will of her ,husband . was
concerned, Helem.had avain 'trausgresSe4
she saw the Aeud on Mr. IloWard'e brow,
.., _
marked 'his. firmly compeesSed lips,.and al-
Most instinctively endeavored to remove :
his displeasure. She twined her arms
about - his neert;btit lie uncrissped thertiond
'—tint roughly indeed, hut firmly—put her
from him.• This she could hardly endure.
"My dear husband," she cried, "do not
look so - coldly, so sternly - oemfe? 1)o he.
_here that I never displease you without
feeling the• deepest regret." Again she
strove to encircle hisneck - With tier arms,
and lay her cheek on his, but was again re
pulsed. . -
"If you had not said as a thousand
tiinesi before,"-remarked Mr. llow;irtl, ,"I
might believe you; but of what use is thai
regret wilich produces no amendment?"
"Helen burst into an agntiy of tears, and
falling at her husband's feet, clasped his hand
in hers. "Do you doubt my sorrow?" she
cried, in a voice chocked by the violence of
her emotion. "0, do not thus break my
heart! Forget that I havc.displeasod you,
now, or ever—fqr wilfully I would never
do so. 0, say that all is forgiven and -for
gotten?"
She was looking op into : his eyes, but
their expression was cold and unfeeling
as ever. In truth ho was moved ; (or he
saw the agony of his wife's feelings,. but
he thought, that perhaps was be less ready
to forgive, he should have loss frequent oc r
casion to.do so, and he suffered not a fea
ture to relax. •
Helen looked steadfastly at Jiim for a
moment—while her heart was throbbing;
and every luncle of her face was working
with anguish—to catch the first indication
of forgiveness and reconciliation; but
nothing of the kind was visible. A. chailge
came over her in a moment. Her muscles
ceased to tremble; her heart ceased its tu
•multnous throbbing; and she calmly arose.
and left the apartment. This was some
,thing now; and for an instant lie was in
clined to.follow her; but the.former thought
returned—••l have made peace too readily;
inure marked displeasure may have a bet
ter effect," and. he restrained the iinpulse.
There was a voice within which whisper
ed that he had - not done quite right; never
theleeslie returned to his engagements, and
left Helen to hers.
When Helen left the parlor; she went to
her chamber.. She felt perfectly calm and
indifferent. "For nearly seven years,"
thought she, "it has-been nly' sole study
to please him, and what is my reward!"
She sat down and mused. „Her entire in
tellectual being seemed resolved into me;
story, and her whole , married life rushed
'in reView before here She saw 'her own
uniform desire to secure his approbation,
and to do his . pleasure,—and Mr. How
ard's excreting, his fault finding, his unfor- .
giving spirit. "It is too true," thought
she—"he is selfish,. arbitrary and impla-'
cable!" At the close of this strain of
thought, Helen's own feelings alarmed
her. Her heart was too.qiiiet. She long
ed to have it gush forth, as in times past - ,
,in tenderness toward her husband;., but it
would not.. It was rathet - feeling than
thought that led her to, repeat--"He
is selfish, arbitrary, and' implacable," and
firmly..clasping her_hands.together, she ex
claimed in- deep_ bitterness of spirite- , "1, 1
shall never love him more!" '
. Never before had Mr. Howard ,been so
anxious "for the tea hours as on this after
noon; and scarcely in hiS • life had twd hours
stretched themselves to.auch an interminable
length.' He could, 'with difficulty, fix his
mind on: its appropriate business: An un
defined feeling of sel(reproneh - and appre
hension haunted himt
arms
thought he,
she will :fly to my arms the moment Lenier'
the house; and then Lwill assure her-that all
is, forgotten. , ' : . .
. .
. Lon . , as the time.. seemed,
.slowly- as it
dregge itaelf along, hewould`not go to his
house
. until the- usual hour; le have done
otherwise;woUld have been too great u-sacri - ,
ficeof his dignity; but the boll chimed
the signal for him to - leave his Office; with
rapid steps, he- lutateifeChOmeward.. The
tea-table was spread when he, entered the-
eating room, but "Lien was not there, rry
sbortly . § ,howeVeri she appeared,:iiiiVWith'
priljt word'acourtes}q—for llelcn
.hed,al ways been courteous oven to hor.ints
band-4-seated herself at the taVe..
- Flowtirdlikewise-likewise-seat,-bitmerLrirai
. c'ally; for to partake off(' the evening meal
p matter that •had:noteptered his Mind. ,
1-Tis eyes glanced 'at Helen's face from time'
to time, to discover if possible, what this
new manner, meant. That . ; 'face he had
hithcnl,o been able to - read as . eagily as then
printed page; but, now, he, has completely
at faul t Could he have discovered any in
,dicatien: of suppressed feeling—the slight,:
est quivering . of tbe lip; could he have dis
c.evered any mark of anger in any feature,
he would.. have
. felt relieved; or could he
have perceiVed any tremor or huskinesS itt
,the voice, it would have quieted,, in some de-'
greci, his feelings; but all I he'se signs pf, crrio.
don were wanting. She looked; indeed;
very serious, but neither displeased . nor sor
rowful; and.ber,.veice, though somewhat
lower than usual, was perfeittly, clear and
mild, iind distinct, as she performed the
usiial services.of the tea table, or b'riefly an
swered, any drilling ciliation he proposed ro
her. Mr. flqya.rd-rather_lingered at' table,'
though ho knew neithei.- What he nth or
drank; but as Helen remained as unaltered
as'a marble statue, he rut lep t tai rose abrupt
ly.end retired. His feelings \ were compound
ed of wonder, anxiety, appteliensien—and
a kintl of displeasure,. of ',which It.had been
"difficult (o decide whether hiresellor Helen
'were the object. • • - .
The next daY,and the next; and the neXt,
‘vere•still the same" and Mr. Howard's. tin
xiety began to settlerintori feelinglorycxa
tion and irritability.• • "Site may remain
stubborn as long as she.'pleases," thought
he. "It is riot the hushithd's place to be in
subk;rviellee to h'is wife;—and if she thinks
in this way, ta soften. my feelings or under
mine my authority, site will find l ' her Mis
take. - If she wish th, harniony of. other
days restored, she must yield." . ..iFor 11)6'
several . preceding-days, Mr. Howard's feel
had been so harrassed, that he thought
not Of . findiug fault of anything; but now he
was not sorry when an occasion of cnnsit re
occurred. Perhaps it would efrect that which
he so ardently desired should be accomplish
ed,-without the slightest decent from dignity
ofi his;part. thd usual manner, he ea.
pressed his disapprobation.
llelen calmly replied, "she was very sin.-
ry, and would be very-careful t hat the same
error should not he again tiormaitted." Mr.
Howard was ihundei . stritelt
. hy her calm im
difrerence.• • would,intich. rather have
seen a tempest of feeling, yiolent in propor.,
Lion to-the unpaturid tranquility that had so
long reigned. Dignity and anxiety had
sharp, but momentary conflict and the. litter
so far:gaine.dithe victory as to lied
1.11.Y7-±
---"You—have- not --appetcred as - - usual - for
some days _Fast', Helen—are you unwell!"
------ "tortypaYfocu tank y0u,"3116 re
plied, ‘ritli the same unmoved lone and
manner as hefore--and ti ritv:el3' raising her
eyes frotn.t lie work in' ‘illie-11 :ilin-was en-
gaged..:.
"At least," pm - weeded Mr. 1 loWard, with
Suppressed emotign,'"you are nut as cheer
ful ns; I like to see:you."
-Helen continued to ply dm needle with
all ildigo'nett, and remained
' Ilr. Iloward
deep solicitude, tied, then
A lit more days spent just like .the pre
ccdieg one, led 111 r. Howard to resolve on
Icni'ing beton •fo'r a week Or two.. lliqlell()
his unavoidable journeys had been: seasons
gr - elit trial - to Helen. • As soon as he
would be gone ; the dads nod hours were
literally counted until his rettirn,itlight
expected; but now, she lio.ll-4, him.propose
to leave home for a number or dap:, with as
much tranquility as if he had only proposed
to take an tiring, With her usual carotin('
promptitude she sail/ that everything was
properly prepared 14 his joura,y, but - there
were no tears, no entreaties ;that he would
..use all possible despatch—no parting kiss
which assured him that her whole heart
,and- soul went with departed—
and in four days was at home agajji. Ile
was on the rack during thin whole period, of
his absence: Indeed his feelings were such,
that when he arrived nt his own house, he
was really indisprised. lieletn met him will;
nll due courtesy; expressed her satisfaction
that he hind returned without nceident; •and
regretted his impaired health just as she
would have done, had it been a common
acquaintance under similar circumstances.
She neglected no duty, however, but nursed
him with N'hiirin g assiduity; though with n
more tenderness than lwr benevolenc
would have led her to manifest to a sic(
stranger.
"How much longer is this to last, Helen?"
said Mr. Howard, one day 'after she had
stood for some time silently bathing his
temples,• but carefully averting her eyes
from his. He clasped her hand in his as he
spoke. kVithout a word in r6ily, she dis
engaged her hand, and calmly to.n
-closet to replace the vial, the contents of
which she had been using. t'
Mr. Howard closed his eyes, and leaned
his head on the back or his chair, with a
suppressed sigh.. He neither new what to
do, nor what to think.: The person who
noved about him, who conversed with him;
and attended.so carefully to all his wants
seemed entirely another being than his own
Helen. Formerly she had been jug like an
atibctionate; confiding, dependant child; ev
ery joy and every sorrow was poured into
hi.sear; her whole soul,was laid bare before
him. At once tihe had become the dignifi
ed, reserved, self possessed woman. She
said 'nothing either of what pleased or trou-
Llod her.' She expressed neither hello's, nor
fears, nor .wishes. She
.conversed freely
upon aTrilibjects proposed if themselves
were out of the'question,—but here,she re
mained impenetrably silent. Her mind
seemed open to his inspectipn; her heart
was hermetically' sefilad. Week followed
Week and monti;lagged lqtcr month, With
out producing any change; but use did not
render' the new state of 'things any- more
; tolerable to Mr. Howard. His conscience
• olicl him the wprk was all his own. //is
happiness was destroyed,—for :though 'to
the world, his pride, of his character made
him appear much the'same as ever, he was,.
M truth wretched.. , And, he thought shirt
Helen must be.wretched too; • for, although
she uttered no word Of complaint—.expressed
neither regrethorsorrow,lhei knew'it must
have been a stunning'bloW, which . could,
have produced so sudden a. transformation.
• But As Helen's happiness destroyed?- It
werwas rational to ask whether the earth
would be as' light, and cheerful, -if - the . , sun
wereshlotted:from the heavens! Love is
the sun "of the moral universe; it is the sun
of society; and• with concentrated beams,
it
-is the, - sun - of domestic hie.— Without-it
all is"dark, and cold and" ,peerless.
Intel
lect may flash,And blaze and:dazzle,----but
if the heart remains Unmoved,- it is.like the
A Moraßorealis orrerigid zone,. lumina-
ling oesplatidn only. Helen's heart so far
.as lmsband! . Was ;; - booperned, . was
Frequently,. and. with all her
power, did - she - strive to -- recall — her - former,
"feeling,mwardihini.: 'She knevi , it was.her
4/4,tolo.ve:hirrOpr..ponsciencesan den - 111
0, her for her apathy'"; and again and again
would she enumerate the'exCellencies of his
pharecter, and call back the tenderness., of
fornifir years,—;-but her efforts were us
„VAR
less ns if she - had striven to Melt ada mant
with-tears. • The-words 'ho is arbi
' irtiy, and implacable,' seemed ' stereotyped
on her very soul, and were first and last to
present themselveS whenever the thought on
the subject. -• s_ . .
-
,In, : propertibn as Helun's . dffections ceased
to dictate her actions towurds Mr. - Howard,
was her Ertina • active in studying duty.--
She was too well. principled; had to much
self-respect,'- , --a rid too great a regard to the
proprieties of life;to do might unbecoming
her relative
-position; or •to leave Undone_
that which could be reosoenbly demanded
of him Her husband s s welfare find respec
tability, She .endeavored to promote to the .
utmost of her,power::--und his kappinesg,
so , fhr as it could be done' with her present
feelings, but this'could 'not he done by ex
pressing tenderness and affection which she
did not feel;- it was contrary her very
nature. • '
!Hen lend no"coVirlence. She could not
disclose her -hen rt•to him to WhOin site. was
bound by the'nearesf of all Ace, she would
dischisif it fo none other. Perhaps,liad her
mother been living, the maternal bosom
Jnightiliave been the receptacle of her-trials;
"hut as dcath removed this. sympathizing
friend. :rip other * coo Id' be% substitute. . Not
even before her t‘7o : oldesrehildren; did she
ever utter a *word that. weold betray. her
secret Oneasiness; Lot bitter Were the corn=
plaints that she murmured in the unheeding
ear of the youngest boy, as she pressed him
to her bead; and scalding the tears she shed
upon his head, called forth by her blaSted
hopes. Exeiprfor her-children's-sake, life ,
had no charms- for :her. To a benumbed
mart what can be either. attraetive"or inter.
esting!--yet [lelen dearly loved, her children
and en their account, life was valurtbk.....—
'Pito human hen: Ulna has any thing to love,
and that is loved in return, cannot'be utter
ly and immediately desolate and. Wretched:
Had M r." Howe rd been what he had now
become, one short year before, he had been
:miring . the happiest of husbands, and Helen '
the most beloved wives: Nevor, since the.
first week of their Unica', had
,he beerr so
anentivc--so studious to please. licr;• and
never, pl any period, so ingenious .in devis,
ing4nenns to. touch herheart--not even in
the daYs• of his...yoUth. []is farill-findMg .
was- nearly or quite pine, • for .when with
Helen he was too much engrossed by other.
cares, to allow of his noticing things of ,tri,
fling_ rioment3ui_alus..for r
for-her too; the - change - caructoe late! it was ,
''like ardor' rifler execurion.'' • _ '
deportm6nt been 71itThrent—
from what it was, her husband'ilicart tylight
have becti 'alienated frams her. lied s h e
sought . 'plensure or symptithy abroad, h a d .
mho hc-cvi fretful oi4 negligent at- hume, hr
would grtidually lut - ve ceased to respect, and
then to love tier; but in truth, - till now, he
had never known of 'what she was capable.
Formerly he had looked upon her as a child
that neeiled a go ide---a musler:—Llovely, en.
-'tearing. .'bit I ; it -is--trice— hilt a rfrilJ ~ id ;
He now saW her it high -souled etlicicnrwo - -
man, veinal to the ilisidiarge of the duties of
her station, without the support or nny one,
and that which was far higher proof of cle
vatiOn and strength of eha racter--equal. to
bcatingiter own sorrows Without the aid of
sympathy. ...In truth, the heart of his Wife
never appeared to him so great a treasure
--a thing of such, inestimable value, as now
that he had lost it; never I)o4te had he been'
so much in love !
'Meantime, 111 r. rind Mrs. !coward were
"the, envy or the admiration Of the little world
in which they moved. They were pointed
out as the best matched, pair that could be
found!—every way suited to improve.and
make each (eller happy! Even M r.Atwood;
high as his expectations .had been raised,'
‘' . lls astonished at the dignity and strength
of .ctia racier, IliS daughter hailacquired un
der Mr. Howard's influence, andequallv sn
at the softening effect of Helen's .over him.
He often sighed with rewet, that his- wife
could no have lived to see the happy . eotiple•
that they now were! ' How. deltniive are ap
pea ranees!
. ,
It was many months after the wrecji of
I
his domestic happiness, that Mr. Hoivard
was' nominated for .Congress. lie asked
Helen's opinion on the subject and it met
subject
her warn] approbation. • • ...
I • 1 believe you to he a
,patriot in the . best
sense of the term," said she—"mill should
you be elected, you may do your country
much good. I know that you are above be
ing, influenced by narrow and selfish party
views, and your pt inciples and talents must: ;
command respect, and exert a beneficial in
fluence. I hope you will proviia - successful
candidate:" . ..
Mattering as this answer was to. Mr. How
l' rd's vanity as a man, it wrung his heart as
a husband. Sony! tWe or three years before
his MI mi; had been mentioned nsa efindidate
Ihr the state legislatucc, and it filled Helen
with alarm. She entrusted him not to eII
- in public business.
"Only think'," said she, ns sheseated her,
self
.on his knee--"only think how many
1
long weeks you may. lie from IQme!, How
could I live so long without - seeing you ?
and so ninny tedious miles between us!. 0,
I should pine ton skeleton in your absence!"
, Such had heen her feelings , but now
- though the distance between them musebe
doubled and doubled again, Should he be
Called to Washington, and though his ah-
sense must be Amy months instead of wee ks,
the thought caused not the slight% rtgia.
tion!—gave rise to not even a sigh.
In 'a softened Voice, Mr.,Hown rd . said—
"but, how, my
. dear Helen, would you get
along during my absence should be called
away. Your cares must necessarily,-lie
greatly
"The same good Provide ice," she re
plied, "that has, hitherto guarded • me, will
do so I trust to the end of my days. I feel
no apprehension." . •
•Mr. Ho • ward's disquietude was in exac
proportion to Helen's self posseSsion; but
q could not endure to linve it discovered—
and he rose
most
reft•The, room. Probably
the pride of men . revolts from the ex
pression of deep emotion particularlY.whon
they are conscious. that they have been 'in
the wrong-and nopruly and thorough,
ly humble thernselveiilo. make the wrong
right. Much as Mr. Howard'had doneithis
was the very thing he bad left . undOne. fie
could be very , kind-vdry attentive;L-but
heteould, not stoop to say:--"1 have beeri to
blame pray.' pardon ine.."
- elec,tion'.carne . on ;:end r.. lloward
rens the„ successful candidate: Re'could not
but he' gratified by the henorlh . ui Conferred
on hini: yet .the Idea. of heaving his' wal
while - I'l > er feclings . were in theii'presen,t'state
.
cansed,hirri unutterable anx•iely. He seen
. jeeta red too,, that her heidth Was less. dilin!
than forrnerly, thorigh- she madp' f , no
plaint; indef d, slrd'would 'ackrioWledge no!
indisposition, even when, he solicitouSly
mt - ale"iaquities on the • subject. • •
Sorne't ime i niervene - d — b - et - WeTailits - tIRT
. lion and fife period when he Was to take his'
sent in the n;ltional legislature;' but it ; !lasted
away, and the hour (hr -his - departure fbr
Washington,.was rapid!) , appreaChing. His
apprehenSionsier_Belea's health increased,
as tbelitne for him 'to leave her drew near.,
Be hod some cause for alarm. Her twit
brothers arid a sister had. fallen victims to
•corisumption a t ri much earlier age thao - thal,
ur which she' had arrived; and her mother
had' been taken natia a y by.the seine unrelent
ing destroyer. Mr, Howard's ;anxiety he-,
came so great that a week or two before he
started on his journey, he requested -.Dr.
'Miller the Molly physician, to call as if by
tiecident, and ascertain,-if possible,-whether
Helen was really diseased,—or whether his
fearS were only the offspring of a distem
pered imagination.
The doctor did as lie was requested to do.
'He called bn Mrs. Hoyard;, to see, 'as 'he
said, how shewas likely •to,licar so Jong a
separation. After • chatting with her for
an hour on the common topics 'of the
clay, he Made sonic leaning remark eon
ceroing.,her health: She confessed that as
the' cold weatber„.came el), she felt sonic
Hdiminotion of strength, and occasional pains
'in the - aesl;•"but nothing," she added-,'"to
interfete with my avocations h er effect toy
spirits:"!-Wifh- the freedom-ofan old friend;
'and family practitioner, the doctor n3olt her
hand, and found it hot. and dry; he felt her
pulse and it was Considdrably ;Meek:l:Ned'.
•
He however made nes comment, and ! with
out any apparent uneasiness renairked 7 .-
"Perhaps it is Well s Mr. Howard goes to
Washington this winter. Such s o pattern
wife as you are, will of course be very do
mestic- during Ins absence; and, .I doubt
whether mach exposure toot r cold northern
air would do any good." •
To Mr. Howard the'deCtor made a re
port as favorable as his conscience would
permit; but he. confessed that HeleaN
'syrnptcans were not 4001 ns lie could wish.
Mr. floward's• look of deep distress led
him too add—'but I hope much from her
firmness Of mind, and equanimity . of spirits.
And afler all. I should probably think very
lightly of her cemplOints, were riot con
sumption .the disease of her family.'
The.moriiing of his' departure found the
'feelings of Mr.llowayd in a itrintilt.---Vain
had been - his endeavors to !deteet in ' Hut
ch -the slightest symptoms of regret at !hair
separation: She appeared only the patriot-,
is woman'thinking, of her • country.'s good;'
the lofty and irideperOent-"minded wife,-.en
joying her husband's honors, but. not lean.'
irig_on_iiim,for_support.
:break table the feellits of Mr.
r I yJn- - _e_tpoy s ei . cd_ltiaL_,Tb_out
Was Jamossible, and it Was*with difficulty
he swallowed a cup orcoffee.
"I shall Write to' yoti—i'ery . ono); Hel
en," said he abruptly.. "You will not let'
all rev letters remaid unanswered?"- •
f , Certainly.'not" Hel6n replied; cart
readily Onderstand ho iv anxious Jou will
feel abdut the_ children "
. rfr. • Howard hit Ilk; lip to I)revplit.
different repression of feeling—and filler a
silence of Irn Ih-acid=
, •
"Will yOu promise me. to take the best
posisihle care of your own health?"
"Surely there.,is lillle need of exacting
such a promise from a mother," answered
Helen. 4.1 feel that my life is Of sonic value
to my little ones,—and of coursp consider
it n duty to'do.all 1. can to preserve it."
fly thus raferring'ld I he - cnildn,. both as
the exclusive objects of his interest, and her
own, Helen completely dosed the I i psi(' her
IMsliand, %%lien he would have expressed
tenderness to herself. Her dignity and rii•
serve, seemed to form a kind of magic eir•
ale around her, which he o lound it -impossi
ble to pass. A The kindness of her actions,
and tile unvarying voidness of her manner,
her loudness in expressing her opinionsond
her concealment of her •Ibelings, kept ,Mr.
11ownrd in - a - , - ennstnnt state of wonder and
excitement; and wove rise to sueli conflict•
ing cmotions,& such contradictory thoughts,
Al.nt one could not 'obtain utteraneCoire its
opposite lind driven it teWay.
j "flaying -your children; with you," snit
Mr. Howard, while' yet at the lireak Ins!
dable;—"you will feel lest; solitary than my
self, separated from all I hold dear."
“You will not, ybu mist not reel solitary,"
said'flelen. "You must give . your mind to
your country, and in discharging your du
ties as a 'patriot and statesman, you will Fuld
enough to engross your heart. And beside,
who can talk of. olitude in the midst of
Washington. society!' •
"Thetrrind is in its own place," said
.Mr.
Howard,-.—"and one may feel as solitary in
a crowd as in a desert."
Both the husband and wifo . now.relnyined
silent; and in a short time they were omits-
ed by the horn- the snore coach sounding
illore the door. The table wa deserted in
And after showitig-the stage
in tanl
waiter his baggatie, Nr. Howard returned
to ihe parlor and closed the door.
"The hitter moment 'has at length come,"
said he. ". We must.Rart! (1, Helen—in
pity say that we pal t friends!"
. "Friends!" relict:lied Ilelen—in a v,niee
as cheerful no . w•as she ever spoke in—for
the light glad tone °readier days had van.
ished away, together with the 'wreathed
smile' that had accompai'livd it.
--assuredly we do!—and most sincerely
do I wish you such success as will leave
.you nothing to ask."
There are' moments in .our' lives when
the Most bitter wailings-of 'gripf would he
sweeter to the ear than theg!iiddest strains
of music, and thus it wits in the pres.ent.
instance with - Mr. Howard. Helen's un
disguised indifference, even at the moment
of pariina, wrung' every fibre - to his-h - eait.
With a look pf intense feeling he
_turned
child/P r n, and pressing them tehis
bosom,murmu red a few fond farewell words.
As he repla , ...ed . the youngest on the carpet,
Helen, presented her• hand. Jle tool it
without uttering 6i syllable, pressed it firm
ly, and then darting from the house seated
himself , in'the coach,"which the next &-
merit rolled away.
CONCLUSION• INIEXT wEnic..l
'Bringing Out the Gnillotine
Our townsman,' Richard Coe, was yesterday
'honored with the followfngcpistle:•• 4
TREASURY • •
August.l7, 3
arnairerted by the President to inform
you Unit your services as Appraiser of Merchan.
disc for the. Port of Philadelphia, are .no longer
required. ---, ; 1 'amAery. respectfully,
&our obedient servant.
- - MeOLINTOCK' YOUNG; , •
Acting Secretary of the Treasury.
Rrotrinu Coc, Esq, ' •
Appraiser, of Merchandise, Philadelphia:
,pTho charge preferred against Mr. Coe, and the
one which caused his„rcineval; is that his
SOn•ln
taw ieva CLAv Mant.:- U. S. Wrizette. -:. • -
LIL V n.
,
•
Belwe7eat. .IFleelsdnicsbvi trah
Boltz tore
(BY RATE RoaD OR' CAN
~li' '
E subscriber grateful for past flvore, he
tkientla..amiA l e- pu bli
generally, that he.still continues to•run a line o
burglar' Curs regularly between Mechatiiesbur,
l and Philadelphia or Baltimore, by whieia geod e
and produce of all descriptions will be foriyarcied
with care and despatch at the I,owest rates of
freight..
• • Produce will be received us Vare
Mechanicsburg, and forw rdcd to either
delphia or Baltimore, acc riling to the dirliVon
of the owner, . I
. Ernie highest price will be given for PVli!tat.
and Flour. •
MARTIN KEIL:Y.4.:
N. B. Plaster of Paris and Salt always kept
on hand, and for sale at the lowest prices.. '
uulnk a) Ciat rw' G.
He. ha.;ulso an hand, at the Depot in Itlechenics.
burg, for sale, LUMBER, such a 9 Bowids,
Shi Angles,. Sea /111 i &C. of all krids,
which will be sold on liberal terms,
August 17, 1842.
Estate: of Jacob .
oneE 15 lIERER V GIVEN, that. Leh
Testatnentory on the list will and testatoe
of JACOII I-I ARN NU; late-of South Middlete
township, Cumberland County; deceased, have ti •
day been issued by the - Reiister otfaid,_Couri -
to:the subscriber-who resides in - the saidlownslb
of South Middleton. All persona having elaim.
or &Mends against the Estate of the said de.
cedent, ore requested to make known the same
without delay,' and those indcbtdd to make pay.
merit to • JOIIN PETERS
,
Fxecutor-of Jacob .tfurnisli , .l. ,. .
609
Jay `2O, 1843
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Lk -
TRIMS ONTMENT is danfe and agreeable
application, and has never tiger] known, to
in curing various'affections of the akin, when use
acebrding to diiccihns: -
ITundredsof certificates might be permed of;
elliyarry from Captains of Vebsels„: School Tear
.ers, Principals of Factories, and Parents, were
not for.the delicacy of having; their numes publish
ed in connection with po loathsome and disagree
tibli; affections. • •
Kt-Price, TwentS•-five cents.n box.
Prepared.and sold only, wholesale and retail, qt
Dr. 1,E1p1"6 HEALTH. EMP,QIIIi;IO, 191
Nprlit second stieet, near Vine. (sin of the. Golden
Bugle and t 4 pipents)Pliitudellibia..
- "For sale in Carlisle, by,
SVEY.F_:NSON.&'DINSLE„.
Agents for Cuinberlautl County.
Carlisln:May . 18;4842:
- 13 EA - Er HAT
.
. a relation, or know .
la any one that is afflicted witli that distresSink
disease, "CONSIUMIVION,Thersuade them with-
out delay to..try rth mong And :unrivaled iin;dk
eine, the•
"Balsaua. of WI cf 4111 eirr .- .
which has cured thousands of this complaint
ter, everything else had failed. Itemt-the
lug undoubted proofs of its efficacy:
'lnxeonourfu, Sept.-10 1841.
1):.1it Sus—Please send me two inure bottles of.
your 13:11K011 of Vt . Ey. like that• you sent
me beffire; flavrthizen nearly alkof thc first two,
end chnlidently believe this medicine will cure roe,
.I have used a great many re:nettles within - the
last year, but have never round any thing that has
relieved me so much. It has stopped- my cough
entirely, checked my night sweats, and I sleep
better at night and feCt better in, every Way, than
I have. ler many months. Yours, respeetfUlly,
JAMES KELLY.
• Iler.mnsneau, Sept,l2, 1841.
Flt •F;x11....1171:3155t:-- ; 1 must again trouble thee to
send me two bottles more or thy invaluable Bob
suns. I have now taken three bottles in all, and
can assure thee that it has dune More good than
all the inedieinu I have ever taken before. Send
by the stage as soon as possible, and oblige thy
friend, JOSEPH HOLLOWAY.
111113TOL, Sept. 8, 1811.
I)eta DOCTOR . :- . --llearing so many people talk
of the ‘vonderful cures your 13111811111 of Wild (Ater.
ry has. mode in Consumption, F sent to one of
your A.l.Tents the min r day for a bottle', and have
fbund it to have relieved me so much," that I want
three bottles more sent soon, as A believe it will
cure Inc too. I have used Jayne's Expectorant
and other medicines besides, but nothing has dono
me as noel gond Its youts hus. Send by this
steandm4 I lienr. . )(ours, trimly,
WILLIAM THOMAS.
V.-713esiiles its • nonnisking ntlicavy in
Consumption, it is ttko the O+t dreetual reined . ) ,
ever disco% ered for LIVER COll PLAINTS.
ASTI IM A, BRONCHITIS, COUGHS, CROVP,
WHOOPING GOUGH, e., as hunch eds will tes
tify who have liven cured by it after all other reale
dieS hail failed. •
1)12 tit:GISTS and DEAL'EIii.S• will tied this
Medicine n valuable, - addition totlicir stock, and
should always keep it,on hand, as it i, universally
acknowledged to be one of the most useful family
medicines now in use. '
'rn - ) Ile very careful to ask for Dr. WISTAR'S.
BALSAM OF WILD CHERRY. Stilt' whole
sale and retail by Iv LLI ANIS & GO., Chemists;
Pourth Street, Philadelphia.
VirTke genuine Ilalszon sold in Car
lisle b'y,..S:\ MUHL EL1...1011', appointed
Agoilt• Price—il per Rutile,
Jane 12E2, 1842,
4: 4 .1.,91:0 611 C, 4 646 - C 1
Evers , Reap Oaght to Enow of
DR. BECHTER'S
Pull onetry Preservative,
10 cifeetoal hi Coughs, Colds, Inducnsas,' CR
-0 tarrhs, Asthma, Pains of the Side and of flip-
Breast, Bronchitis, Spitting of Blood, ShortiMlis
of Breath, Whooping Cough, all Neases of the
Breast and Lungs, and fOr the arrest of approach'
ing Consumption.
"Friends
So popular is Dr. Bechter's 'Pulmonaiy Preser
vative throughout all Gsrmany,.and so effectual in
Diseases of the Lungs, that from its' miraculous
effects and wonderful cures—it is there generally
known and styled "Dr. Beehter's Life Preserver."
As nurnerouacertitieetes of its very good effects,
and wonderful cures in this country, have been frier
- cmently - publislied; -- it - istleemed necessary only ttk
remind the public of_so.yaluable a medicinb, and
inform them where it can ho procured.genuine.
Price—Fifty Cents a half pint bottle.--_—
V , Prepare(' and soldoVholesale and-retailotHri -
I,EIDY'S HEALTH F.MPORIUM,'.No. 10/
North Second street; below Vine, (sign 'of the
Golden Eagle and Serpents) Philadelphia.- ;
- For sale in' Carlisle, by
• , STEVENSON & DINICLE,
. • 'Agents for Cumberland 'County..
Carlisle, May IS, 1:842., 29-14
411aA1 , 11.&_ . f..N.NA11 4 0R.
Ofitce, Centre Square, - S. It: -
Corner, at the Old Stand.
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