BY HAWLEY 86 C RUSE R e 31ONTROSE, PA., .A.TIGUST 2 1i876.
OVER AND OVER AGAIN . . I
Over and, over again, • ' 1 \
No matter which_ way .1 turn : \
1:
I always find in my Book of ,Lif ''
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'Some 'lesson I Lave to learn t ' ;
1 must take 114 tUrti at the mill, . ,
I•must grind out the golden grain; " /
I must work at my task with a resOlute will
Over and over again. ; 1‘
We cannot measure the need. , ' •
Of. even WO tiniest flower, t
Nor check the flow of the golden sands •
That rnn through'a single hour. '
Tint the morning dews must! fall, '
And the sun and summer rail' - .
Diust do their, part, and perform it
Over and over again. ' .
Over and over again •
Thn brook through the meadow flows,
And over and over again " •
The ponderous nall-wheel goes,
Once doinOvill not suffice,
Though doing be not in 'vain,
And a blessing failing us one or,twice,'
May come if we try again. •
The path that , has once been t d
Is never so rough to the feilt;
And the ltssons we once .haste learned • -
Is never hard to repeat.
Though sorrowful • tears may fall; , ,(
And the,heart to its depth be driven,
With storm and tempest, we.need them all
To render, us meet for Heaven. -
HAD SHE BUT KNOWN.
ASTILL, quiet day in Febrnary, - the air
. mild.and soft, and filled with a faint,.
pearly haze, through Whig 1
.the SW) sh iit
with,the shy, sweetness• f a bride . .h if
. l o
shrouded. in her., Misty. 'veil. *Orocu es
thrust their white and . lilac .heads,out of
the mold. in London squares and gardens.
A faint, rosy
_flush _dimpled the tops of
the almond-trees in the park. • • The
mounted . Volic-nau in. the -Row - looking
very: tike , .-au ill-stuffed clod figure in .
PatienceOn a monument, smiling at etilp ;
tiness. A
. sMall dog 'barking a l the .
fleets of .duCks dimly showing, through
the mist on tho gray -silvier of ithe Ser.:-
pentine. - A girl: - sitting on ;the. bench
near.the . boat honk waiting—that was
ail, - : .- -
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. Waiting I Yes, 'does not. every One
know the
.thirhistakable something:which
stamps a person as being in a 'state of
expectancy;
: be. it of a passing Cab; a sis
ter in the nearest Shop, or a - lover,alw.ayst
too kite ? Don't.ask me ito ekplitiu,iyhat,
it iR ; not reStlesineSs ;, the..girl oat:. as
stilt as: it carved out of. StOr.e, her ' handS
f01d,..d . 0n her knee in - perfect, Motionless
quirt ; not an, impatient expreisiOn; her
face, a pretty, neat-featured - little—face
too, was .pale and it • trifle sad,, but •no
shade of impatience riifti-d• - the •set, firth'
bps or. the steady, 'far away gaze of; :the.
large; gray, misty eyes. . No ! I thin%
know what it is, and I • give ‘ it , up ;: but
every man or woman - 'ofcornmon dia.
cntanent knows what I thean.and.wmild
have agreed with that Mazie (set
name for Margaret) Jernibgbarn was
. waiting ; ..and had been waiting for some
one for the ;last ten minutes-=was get-.
tint; tired of waiting , too, -for • the ',eyes
had acquired a deeper Shade of pain, and
the "perfect litis" were..P
folded
-more clo,
ly as if * 'lc' *• .*
But. here ..ho..waS 1.,
A tall,-bread-shoulder6d man,, of eight
or nine and twenty, brown eyes, brown
curly hair, cropped in that 'peculiar' ClOse
convict-cut Which our ;lads assume .now
adays ; a handsome liaii2lily lace.,,b,roWn.- -
rd, too, by foreign,suns and out-door. life
—atitee .the expression' of which. Could
be 4weet and winning a a woman's; but .
elonder.lnoviby •st:itroubled look, mixed
up of 'annoyance,- shame, : and' defiance—
an unpleasant combiliation. - .expressed
oddly enough 'in his. very iwalk, expressed
not at all (heed' Laity-it,- this, being. the
nineteentlfcenthrY ?) in-his 0... eting..
. "Here.,before me, MaZie! :tam so snr
ro, dear, butt could :not : come SoOner ;
an old 'friend of mire, .13itnsliire;• of the
Tenth HUSsars,delayed. me at the club.
"I always. come here early, that
. Jack
rnav enjoy ibis swim witkoutthefisk.'of
so.dting anohodV.'s . •fine dress afterivare
she answered.,laardly waiting
,ior.. his ex
pittflitlion,-:and taking' 4way theiliand he
wits &till holding.:: .Will_, Trit;ireii .looked.
a iwr narrowly; and us-if'. : glad:..to.firi4:a
ri.agon for the . ..pallor . on cheek and bi:011,
twist _out : '2 .- .n - :,... - ..,.
"Y,iu are, vexed' dt me for. being:late,
Aidzie, .andi•it .-_, was. so..:gOod . of, you to,
c tine ; but indeed--" , -• .I ' - .. '''.'
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• "I am • pot . l'ix,ll .at 'al ;:I :,6me-.- here , on
Jack's account; ' 1 told Ott's° last, hight”
slit..si.:ht - sh - ortly„-and; turned ..away- with:a
slight A rug ::of. - - . ller: - ehophititi(i . o;: Will
cri.tl out ;:-:. , •-'. . -.,.' .'. :, - .- . . i '-':':- s. -
"liipg - tba(jabk,. ! you, thipk.of.:ll4:o'Ll
ilig else. 4,aeked'.you . if 11 Miglit6come;
loci meet you -,, •:.... :,. • i „ -:...,.• ._ : ,:„......:.::.i..i. .•,...
"And t said ' the ...• pat 4_' by: the: serpen, ;
titre was not my prOperty.', ,: :-
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"But yeti did not - 'say - -1 was', - ,n0t.10. 0 , , t4 , :
( Art-fen : men are, - excited. their gram..tx,ter..iiij,
an f;mlt.)....f : Yorti'kneW
..I wOuld-- -, ,cchate:.,:.
.that 1.. ‘irtlitt ',hoe:break - 'an.' appointment.
With von..--' ''..-''s
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"Mr. •TraVera,.. - sati3 the .girf..prOtidlY„
"I woubl'fiot make- an. appointtnene*ikh
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different this morning ? Why are you freezin g his wrath even as it-aroused it_, •
so,cold and hitter 1" •, • "and it-is 110 , ,v ended. Good bye.n
"Becausebecause; Will, lam getting She held out her hand, and he took it;
very tired of all this." she=answered,look-. but only to half mush it in both his, as
.ing up at him Suddenly.. Toey he - cried
standing by - ,the \ water's edge now, with • "Mlizie, , foigive me.' 1 1 thinkiUam half
*Jack describing wet and- frenzied circles mad to talk so ; but will . do- better if
,round them ; 'and both faces looked sery you will only, stay .with me: I'll speak
pale in:the misty-light. • out to your stepmother, 'hough I know
"Tired, Mazie Tired of me ?" she will say 'No,' and so do you, don't
"No,' not tired of you' but of your you, Mazie
ways--of,the life you lead, and of the "I think so: Yes." The girl's face
life you are Making me lead." - had grown even whiter than ,before, - and
'don't ;understand - you," he said, her breathiti2 came, hard and qnick
finshing pp half in anger, half 'in Mar- 'Then where is the use ? 'Wish I
titivation. "You itre complimentary : this were a rich man for your sake : ; but at
morning, Mazie." ' least I'll app'y for a ship to-morrow.
''No;_ lam •not - complimentary, only, never-rest till I get my promotion. l—
ifoliest,". Mazie replied sadly. "Look here, Mazie, darling don't look 'like that, I
Will"—for''he was going -to, speak--"lis- know I've said. the same before,;, ,but Ido
ten to me foria few minutes, for I am -mean it now. pear won't you, believe
going to be very plain. • You saw I was , rue ? -Won't you say you are' ine still?"
annoyed at the ball last night, and, you - White and hiter yet, and the bosom
asked Me to' come here to•day.' I was rising and falling in slow, heavy throbs ;
annoyed,' and I've come"--something but the answer came steady as a rock :
'choked her for a° moment, and she pans- "No, Will, ; not, yours any more.,
vd---"cotne ta tell you that lam tired of Ido believe you, that yqn meati what you
this secrecywhicri I hate . ; of this half- say now, but would you mean it a week
engligrement, ;which is every- hence ? 'Could you keep true
,to, me—
thing or nettling, accOrding t o your, true in my sense of the word--not only
.pleasurei ;ilia which simply gives you the for a few.months,but duriiig the years- we
-right to make me wretched ay your 'eat- might be mried.? You know-you could
, ousy, your flirtations, your temper,-and not ; and I should be, wrong--I should
your love—Sea; your love;_ for if you did feel guilty of makingi you yin=--by bind
not love me a little, or pretend to do so, ing you to what you could not do, un-
I would never have let you have your settling your lite, and deceiving my kind
way, never cared fOr you as I have done." stepmother, for silence is a sort of deceit,
"live done, MAzie ! Don't you:care *my what you will ; and all for what ?--a
Itor- me ?"- fancy which would never last, which nev-
"That is not the Aneition," she.
coldly, "What- I was saying comes simply ;
tn. this, Lain weary of it ail, weary and.
disgusted,- and I `want end' it."
fact, to break your engagement,
and leave Me 1.. , Oh, Mazie, you .dan't
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you.can't Mean that.'' .
•'I is VOice i • his eyk-s, those brigh t' brown;
beantiful - so • terribly fascinating
when: .they were full of passionate - . re-,
proach,-hut! - she never loOked at hiin
the small gray-gloved hands never trem
bled asl they. played. with Jack's, silky
e the the - dull-.lustre of her Brass, gray
.
alsop snr9o . h and unruffled over, the
shapt.lyi hc l lsOtri;',•only 'she 'in-: the:
saine'illi t ietitones
"Yon told me it was not an engage.
merit_ when we began - it that we 'were
both freetO decide as we pleased."
yOn have decided - to.: fling, iTki
away beicani,yon are. :tired of even the
sha.dowof tabond. to a poor devil with
nothing biit his love - to give'yOu. My
God! Mazie you.. cannot be • so base, so
hearth*, Or, if .you are—" , „
``lf Y ani, you would - - be. much better
off - without tne,7' she answered • steadily,'
tnough!the grey silk was 'heaving stormi!..
!lyetintigh_now,.and Will saw it, for he
l 'eatight. , ,her hands in his, and cried out :
yon are .not I don't believe
it ; you - are. - ti)o noble, too true. Oh I
Alazie, if You knew how I loie-andjworl
shfplytio. know t did flirt- with
_that
chitOf a-kirl last. night ; but What
Will you have ?V A man isn't, a Saint
and 'When!! a girl throws herself at his
head— ,
"That's right,. Will! It is so 'zentle
maniy; soilionorable, to excuse yourself
to one woman, at the, expense of- a•tot her.
There, beg your pardon. I : ad no
right to cotnment on your wOrds. • What
is the use l Of going on talking"wnen there
is really nothing to be said but good
bye." d • •
"Mazie,,3lazie, what would you have
me do ?"
' "oi ? Nothing." -
"What; have I done then ? At least
tell me thit. You won't inake me be
lieve (I know you too welly that you
would cast me off for one idle flirtation."
"No, not for one," she said, zadly, "nor
yet for
,ten. In themaelyes they are
nothing ; but Ipcause if you cannot keep
true to me before marriage, you would
never doi so afterward. If the 'pleasure
of ;an flirtation, of whispering pret
ty complinaentg, and e,alling• blUslies
,to
prett!) elieeks, is greatei to you now than
the preser'lation of My peace of mind or
your hobo , we are better apart. What
would you - say, what would you think,,
I were to, act as you-do ?" • ' •
_.llrOnie4 are different to men," he mut
tered halt apoloo`etically.
"Yes, I:suppose thpyftre. At any rate,
you 'find IT . ar i e so different that we could.
never be; happy, together. No, Will, it is
not theiiirtatiou only ; 1 it is the Want of
firmnes4 the want of energy, the selfish
—for it is selfish---weakness . which ruins
• your whole life, and :lets'you put aside
munition.; duty, eyeil honor, for an hour's
pleasiire." •
"You 'are - plain"enough, and
hard onitne,too," her lover replied haugh
tily in his turn. "Another woman might
have hesitated before blaminrme tor not
exiling Myself on a three-years' cruise
half acroas _ the worid, when it was my
love for 'her which held me here 'But
you' Are so- cursedly tigid. One might as
. well have . a Stone fora wife as yon.
that I am to have ever thought you had
any softness or womanly tenderness' in
Youi • - • ,
• "it was a ashore lived folly," She an
swered„, the utter deadness, of her tone
er does last beyondits own gratification,
No, Will, a_thons:and times can
not be'. If .we cap lot e-each other. at
:we can do.it as well. free As. bOrma, And
now..-:forgive me It I've hurt:- you, and
God bless you. :good:bye." • , .
"God forgive you,' Mazie," -cried the
"foryon have cursed me . indeed., 'I
shall go 'to the de - vil...now. fast , .enough-L
the faster .the bbtter. Who -cares ? Not
you.hard and calculating- as you are.;
and l _yet—yet -;--thongh you don't care
.enough for me to save me froni : ruin, I
love you ; I always- shall 'love you- better
,than
_any living woman; !and. : : I'll ..win
you yet some :day.'.. my uwn . heart's
ling ;" and tSent-,they; were Under the
- r ai.oh of the bridge,: with - _the deep . shad.;.,
owS 7 -- - rotind them;, Oct only, the gray;
treMbling water Rif a..witueSq-.,-Travers
caught the girl in his
,arms .-as . 'she Was
turni 'from him, caught: and nearly
crushed her to hlB heart m a sort of ften
zy, broW, lips, and cheek not
but a bandred :times as •he did.so. /The
next.monieut he was gone, passed away
iirto the mist, and - .Mote , Jerningrham
was - left alone.
* . *
Two years--a short - space long
life, ivrnere nothing to look bach.upon in
general; though a very eternity fin pros,
pect—two years had passed; mid Mazie
Jerningharn was, Mazie Jerningl . 4m, sill
alone. It was evening _now4-a
.bright evening after one - ot tht hottest
days of an unusually . hot July-and she
.was sitting on the . pier at Scuthsea, look
ing across the sheet of deep, botionless
blue to - where . the Isle of :Wight . rose
gri•enly purple against a.pre-Raphaelitish
biick:lrotioo of. violet and critfifon
Behind the dark, fringe'. of tries erO,wn 7 .:
jog the suintuit of the - islauti. the 'sun
was sinking Lk , a huge -globe if lambent
flame, and as it touched the topmost
boughs it flung a .broad btrl of liquid
gold. across the .dimpled waters of the
harbor to Altizie's fret as sheleaned over
the railings; the only solitary, ;the only
sad-looking person among tht gaily Brea
sed, , ..gayly . talking sioups. : Of people, who
sprinkled the pier.
~
-.She nail been rather a petty girl two
years ago, more . noticeable,. verliaps, for a
certaiti..refinement,..an .air of , inimistak- -
~able good style which* 'clung: - about her
I than . : for - aCtual - . gOodl• looks/,. , Nov, , at
fo r4n.tl twe
ti ft; . ivoui.n - 7 .beaatiftil'"OreA lar,,,ith 014 .:the
added.charin ofbirth- and .4 ultivatiop ;.
and :Ohe: . 101 1 6w it; knew it: 'ash. did
any of the idle gazers on that
it
rather less than she:. did greenish
white:, petibles':gliftitierNg:'lo . otigh• ,the
cool water under her feet , .
*stet:l:Weed - flaPpi to fro
at, the will. of .that same. ws,ter. -What
was beatify o: grace _to .her when:she was
-all-Alone .„ •
Two years ago, even now, looking
back, it seemed like ten to her-Lshe had
been wont rather to fret because .her
ham was not curly. her cheek as pink,,
and her eyes as blue as other girls'
girls Will us.ei to admire at the theatre
or in the Row. , She wanted
,to beretty
then for _Will'a sake, just as .she w anted
to be rich, just as she thanked God for
her talents, her good old name, Ind the
capabilities f)r good she felt within het.
They 'were just so much to give Will,
and for that revs; n they were precious to
her, not for any fifer. An , orphan, with
neither brother or sister, hying with a
wetidthy_steprnotl 4 er, and, while enjoying
every' comfort and: , ev en luxury in that
lady's house, fully aware that of,ter own
she had only the prospect of a modest
hundred a year and that contingent on
*• * *
her wit mai rynig- !without ;Mr. Jerning
ham-s;oe,ati,sion 11eillre tier twenty-titth
year, perhaps no hiumait heing.felt more
solitaty .than didAlL* at the hour Ive
are contemplatiuglher.
There she sat ithinking, as "she did
often much too 'Often—of that'-parting
in. Hyde 'Park tinder the old archway.
She never. could
,tiite recollect how:she
had gOt home afte ward and, what came
next, though She i
titicbuld remember well
that, filet after Will - had. sprg up the
bank 'Master Jack . had'
,leaped on -the
foremo-t, miss - of .An- approaching girl's
school' splashing li,er with water from-his,
tail, and _she (JLaic.) had to go forward
and apologize in[ her pretty, lady like
manner for the accident, She could re-
member that - 'trifl.6,jand also , a very red,
pimple on theiverlarge. nose of a -hald,
cii '
headed old gent! min who,' sat, opposite ;
to'.ll rat dinner Oaf day; brit eVerVth ink;
else, thotight,feeliiit, . itint' siirrOundings;
seenied like one dant , blank , tci•her•until
she foUnd herself!
,Iying. 'face downward
on ithelfloor,of her roo,in„ with :thedoor
bolttd,and the : ificion : looking curiously
in on. t.: e tem pe4Of - Sobs . and t ars w hich
*tie. t. ring -, her/ Wight ' 'fraane ' With the
violence of its a.lir,uish: • •• • . _ •. -
He ,-Was all she had, ~ her-own, her 10ve . ,,
Iher *atiSbantt in all but naint., • the very..
heart spring o! • her. existence, - and she,
had torn . hi4elfi away from him. ';Nli
one; not evendierSelf, could have told hoW
deeply and ii Lssi4iiately. she: ha i d loved
that-iO., gopil-for-nothing .„voting sailor,
With his tandsnme face and winning
manners. ,She oipy learned it now when
he was gone from her for ever ;• learned
• it i 'ai.we, 14irn inti List things'-* this - world,
too late. 1 - ~ i ' „• . . - —.. . •
-Are al' '
women` such. , c,mtrAaietions,
,I
.wontlto Do all of. them-know their minds ' 6i• rather f their - bouts - - for when
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do Mio and heart 'go together in' a'
. womerHaslittlelai Mazer •Jerningham ?
No gill could have'. appeared. more cold ;
1 moreyasSionlessi more unsympathizing-,
I'ly. - , hard i than Miss jerniligh_ain
,When.
reas#iiiii4i coolly !with, and as coolly die=
thisiing her loviik, passionate, - liiillAes ,
piate suitor. Now, • that prudent sensi
h4.• m:miiii of 'the 'world , was . , rocking.
herself- to and frp, : her, eyes with
arser face 3 .1
blinded
the
se. her;face, horrhair soakedin. same
. . .
sezikiing Cain, he i r hands twisted tooher,
her breath:. coming in I fast; . strangling
sobs, her white parted lips quivering..with.
hopeless i,gasps. ! of -- 'sheer, heart-broken
misery.
,And Denten:tut Traversovhere
Was he ?-1 I -
His bonny br4Wn.eyes had been full of
tears—tears whiCh were no 'disgrace' to
his manhood When 'he - held , his' hard
hearted love on-- his breast, and as.
,he
strode away hisibrain seemed almost on
fire with wrath ;and despair!;, but ere he
got into ?iceadilly he met a naial'friend,.
Who greeted hiiii with warmth,told hini.
'he - looked awful seedY,•and.asked him to
have 1 glass of !something at the eltib;
and. Travers assented; and had not one
glass. - tint - several ' of . SoMething - which
ekirt-il his. head .for .the . moment, .:and.
gave hiin ar:ificial spirits and afterward
he dined - and - .Went to.. the . French • play
with the same .friend,; and after that—
Well„ I don't . think we need follow him.
any further.' 'He_ had told • Mazie that
she' wouid send j Min to. the''Cievil, and;
therefore i lt, vviii probably her fault if he
took.a long step 'in : that direction • the .
same night; .ori-if,-while.she-was praying
and• - wresling- lith sorrow . ~and - love and
remorse for hell lost:lover, that brier - was
making : a fool; arid Worse' than a fool, of
himself somewhere in, the ' neighborhood
- of the Haymarket.-- . . :. ; .:. ,'. :.• ,
. _ `‘Telle estlalvie - Psind,,my , dear i ..mes,
sieurs and mesdames, : you, and
.1 :,were
.young once,
was 'it SO very -- tlifferent - in :
on r dav-? • A: - good old' Frenchman - once
said, "Il'y ii.tonjeurit tin-qui aime-; et.`tin
. qui se laisse ainier-4un - qui
.bsitie; et tin ,
. qui . tend : la jou`e.7 : Will..had,. been, . eager
'enough to "bailers'
_but_ Mazie had nut
e•ven l " tend u laliotie ;:it was .his - turn noW.
'She had never Seen .him sinee ;.-iiiid .she
had never told;' any one "of ..her: -trouble.
It-was a very short4ived folly; as.shehad.
said , that sad•liromance;. lttle and it was
'ended now -- , - - If, everything - else:" in life,
.seenied• ended:ton. that'eOtild hot belielti
eth - ...1t' is notiAbe': fashion' .:tei die' of a
broken heart .nowadays, and' she could
live - : , it- dowtW Teeple : had. : lived ; dOwn
worse things..l:l 7- es, Mazie,-..50. they have ;
hfitlliat saine!precess
,of "living 'doWn7 :
ii,a; Worse . inartyrdiiiii than many adeith,l
and all the mere that to weep -over' the
Victim is tbe - nttielest -- aggravation - of her
Offerings that, we. eau - ,offer.:, Mazie gisiVe
rioloneia,-ehaniee T .‘of weeping., over hers;
let .fall no word ; Which conld - giVetieltie
to - bei.sorrol.l' She"; hid ..a . '.heavy COld,
she'said;:and so iidie.kePt her :itairitriii - a`
couple_lpf.days and the blindS• were drawn
down, and.a White , fisee • anit..iwoleti . eyes..
were quite adtpillOble even :, in .141..‘tlernr
ingharreti - :opiniOn. ; But; ,alter` . .tliat''Stie
Came down staiftand' - tOok : . - .0 her - usual.
'role . afl lime and • 4004'1.411HO; and was
'the wine:graO - Ofol; dignified-, • mtelligqnt
-Miss . ifernipkbaln . as . of old ; tho..,sarne
'olear-eyed"; courteously' girl to. all
outward ailkaraticeasiihoJbad . :overlieep ;
bow changed within - Ono but herself: and
God knew, - ,.1.: :7 :" --.- ..
• .'
People-talk ed ` '4 :little at flrst; and Wond-
VQ,L . .'.:' a3:4:11'-q,'
ered-Iyity that,' charming..Liententin . t
Travers was 'neter . to'bt; met at the Jeri).
Digi t aites now. There had certaito been
.a.strouglirtation,hetween him : and Mint:
JerninghaM 7 --thongh she_ seemed . so
proud :the'
`way-'-bilt after every
. one knew, ha
had no money: - and' waS:4lWays flirting
with . same::onei;: - those 'liftiitora were so •
proverbially fickle. And then some one
ssid he bad gone to sea again; and it was'
suggested that Miss Jeruingham, had re-:
fused him. ( Jerniugham, of course,
Would not dream :of such
.a. miserable
parti for het' elegant 'step . -daughter, and
ev4y one. knew how
.devoted Sit Edward
Bartlett bud been'th that quarter of late..
So wiigied the tongues for a 'few' 4ays;
and; then the subject 'forgotten- for,
some more intereatiug • piece of gossip,
and Igazie was left to_ herself. .
Not utterly heartbroken after the last::
few week&. There `eras a great: elemen tof
justice in this - girl's - character and - before
that stern goddess Will's, wrathful s2eeches
and despairing threats melted- away and:
were "Condoried Op the scOre,.4 tae proyo-,.
cation which had 'evoked :them. . if,he
had not. loved me he 4ould not have been
so angry," 'said Mazie to :herSelf; - and the •
t hough t
,brOught a sudden - 'warm - pulse to:
thP - p.,or bruised heart a soft =stover the
paintulbrightness of the:brave - sgray eye&
His last, words, :-too, how could she for
get them--shy-, Woman, and - .a Woman
so, passionately in love ? Oorninon sense
and- logie : :*ould have told. her - 'at once
that it,was . .absard ,to lay, stress on one.,
more than another, when both, were - ut- .
tered iii a'rrioinent of great'excitethent
but then girls are seldom noted for either
common sense - Or. logic -! and - :well for mi.
they are my. ! for. on the strength of that
one sentence, "I love you better than any
woman, and win. you yet some
day; Mazie quite 'consecrated her whole
life, heart; and 'soul, preseat and futnre,
to - waiting for that day:, Sir - Edward
Bartlett was sent away discomted, and
so were one or two, other
.men of
_good
means' dad high' standing, - Whom mast
girls-would have been only .too 'willing
to.-accept Mazie 'kept - Wiiri ,
angry kiss -eacren on . ., : her. lips. against the
woader of the ivorld,and the grumbling •
of her step .mother,-who, being A kindly,
managing woman; was fatiiiotis to see her
daughter well established in - life: • • -
it is not to be supposed, however, that'
Mazie confessed- to herself that she was
waiting for, or even expectedlor one mo
',Tient, a renewal of the offer: she had re
pulsed. She .told herself with' stern-de
cision that it was, all over forever, and
that it was well fur both oLthem that it
should be so ; \but all the, sane she made
a willina sacrifice of her whole inper life
to WieTravers, kept herself single .fur
him ' .prayed ,for him, thought of him,
amidreampt of him with the entire, sin- '
gle-hearted devition of a loving wife.
Every; day, she read every ward of the
"naval and military"column in Times
and there' itie read that he had gone to
s-a again .a fortnight after their parting ;
later on, of his promotion to the-rank of '
commander ; later still,- a .hrief account,
of Captain Travers' gallantry in saving
the life of a sailor , washFd overboard in
the outer harbor of Rio Janeiro and ahl
how the pale cheek glOwed and' the bean
.tiful eyes sparkled on that day, but after
this came a long interval of 'ailencemben,
excepting forthe t•astiniony of the
,blue
-Navy List" In Itiazie's desk. Captain
Travers might have dropped out of exits- -
tence altogether.-
She was thinking or him now, as I
have said,*while sitting ,on . the pier on
this pleasant July evening; thinking of
past pleasant
,days, with a sort, of sad
smile oil her_ lovelk face. which shoWe4
the lotureatein-eiror when he declared*
"a sorrow's crown of sorrow ie remenibtr
lug happier_ things ;" I trying.-not to think.:
of a certain dim pictiire of a. happy meet
ing, a - warm, loving reconciliation ,fir
away in the - hazy. future. "So lost was'
she. indeed,:in ;her dreams; that she'nei-'
er felt tbe warm rays of the setting stia
as they kissed her, cheek, never saw the
golden glitter in the water, or- beard:
the steady flip, dip,pecttliar to the swee'p
of- min-of=watoars, till the sharp, rattle
in the-rawlocks, and cry of ' 4 oaes in I"'
startled,ber_ into it,Stiddeg recollection -of.
her svbereabouts;, and, looking.down
- V - ) the 'boat, She paw the very man she,
had been dreaniing of, the 'lover so long,
parted, just springing to the steps of •
pier. What she 'meant' to 'do, what she'
was, going to say ; do not know; but,
like one in a, dream, she rose; to her feet, -
and made a step, forward with gyeat,
wide 'glistening eyes, and parted, quiver
ing:HO:- If he had seen her then, and'
taken - her to - his arms before all:the peo
ple on the pier, I don't think her pro- ,
priety Would have been - much startled,
for the • raomentl hut as it happened,
he 'mut stayed at the gateway by twolti;.
dies,'who seemed, to be Naiting for him,
and whom he greeted familiarly.
One of these ladies was a- Mewl of.
Mazie's , ; • the other a tall„. fair, Germsyl-.
looking girl, Kitther coarsely -bnilt.
,and
dressed with more - 'attention to - sliowinest,
thantrood-.taste: =They stood = - tViritiaol
talking with Captain TraVers, and - , then,
teoniinUfd Aura Pagsq