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subject. at
Sonic time inierventid, between his
election and the period he'was to take
his stitt. in the Nationals Legislature;
but it hastened away, and the hour lire
his departure fur .Washington was
rapidly increased, as the . time Ihr him
to leave her New,near. Ife s had some
cause for. alarm. Her iiyo brothers
and sisters had fallen victims to con
t:uniption at a much earlier age' !than
that at which she had arrived; and
her Mother had been taken away by
the. runner interring destroyer. Mr.
Howard'A anxiety, became so great
that n Nveek or two befel!' he started
on his journey, he requested Dr:Mil
ler, the flintily physician, to rail its if
by Occident, and ascertaiu'if possidde
whether 11 - Aden diseased,
whetter Ili:Vt.:ll.s were only the Ott . -
spi ing Of a distempered 'imagteatiun.
The i h did as he was requested to
do. He' called oh Mrs. Howard to
: r e p, he s aid,. hew she NViti likely to
nehtdide hear sli him; a ieipiiratin. After drat
! 1e• now saw her ahi eh smiled effieient t i n g with her for an hour-on .the cum:
discharge of the (lithe.: of her smiti.t. mon tiqiici; of the day, he made some
without the. su pport o f an y o ne; and. loading remark concerning her health.
t h a t t‘hdell was far higher pi 4iur t,f el the celifessed, that: aS the cold weiither
alb in and strength of character, equal came on, she felt some diminution of
to bearing her own sorrows without .strengilr, and occasional pains in the
the aid of svmpathy. In truth. the chest . , but nothing . , added, 'to
heart Of Lis Wife had never before interfiTe with my avocations; or to
:Traria! to him so great a treasure, affect my - spirits; With the freedom
:. thing of such inestilmdde value, How of tin hid friend and praeti- .
that he had lost it; never betbre hail et inner, the deetti'r tuck her hand, and
lie been so much in love! found it lint and dry . ; he felt her pulse,
Meantime. )Ir. ;cud IN. 110 Ward and they were considerably acceli_.-
were the envy 'Jr the admiration of rated. lie, however, made no COlll
- little lvurld in which they mevi'd• meat, ;old without any apparent uneu-
Thcy were Poinled at a . .; the best siness, remarked:
matched pair that! could be found ! *Perhaps it is well Mr.Heward goes
cl'ery way Ito linpr , kVC, and., to Washington this winter. Snell a
make each other happy. Even .Mr. :poicrir of a Wife as you are, will of
Atwood, high as his expectations had course be very domestic during his
been raised, W:lti 11,timi,bed at the absence, midi doubt whether much
dignity and strength of character his exl ,„ ur ,,,, to our co ld northern air
daughter had acquired under Mr. would du viili any good.'
lioward's influence; and equally so at 'l'll Mr. Howard, the doctor made a
the effects of Helen's influence over report as thvorable as his conscience
He often
,:•iglicd with regret would permit; but he colifessed that'
thui his wife could not have lived to lichen's symptoms were, not such as
the happy couple that they were i he could wish. - Mr. Howard's deep
I low delusive are appearances! distress led him to add: 'MO hope
It was many months after the wreck much from her firmness of mind and"
of his lilfinti.gic happiness, that. Mr. equanimity of spirits. And after all,
Ibevartl was nominated tin• a member I shall probably )Link very lightly of
"anf.ress. He asked Helen's opin- lieu complaints, were nut consumption
lint on the subject, and it met her WUrlll the disease of the family.'
appr.)lo;all The !miming of his departure found
.1 believe you to be a patriot in the In feelinvs all in a rumidt. 'Vain had
lies; sense of the term.' said she. 'and been his endeavors 01 detect in Helen
should you he elected, you may do , the sli eht est symptoms of regret at
your cliuntry much good. 1 ko.w their separation. She appeared only
von are above being influenced by the noble and patriotic woman—think
nari ow awl party views, and itig or her country's !rood . ; time lofty
our principles and talents must cent- and ind e p e ndent-mini - Ted wife, elijey
mand revert, and exert a beneficial ing her husband's looters, but out
influence.- I hope yon will prove the i leaning on him fur support.
meessful candidate. At-the breakfast table, the feelings
Flattering as tins answer was to Mr. I of Mr. liewnrd nearly overpowered
lloward's vanity - as a mall, it wrung him. To eat was impossible, and it
his lieu as a le:isband. Sumeetwir or I viets with difficulty that lie swallowed
.., three vents liefUre, his name had been a cup of ten.
'lnentinned as a candidate for the State • shall write to you very often,
Legislatur e , and it 'filled lichen with Helen.' said' he, abruptly. 'You Will
::Isom. She entreated idle not to nut let all my letters remain unans-
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'Only think,' said she, as she seated 'Certainly not,' Helen replied; '1
hei:elf iin his knee, 'only think how can readily understand how anxious
many ln , ‘vecks you may he from . you will feel abinit. the children.'
home! {law could 1 lire so long Mr. 1-biward hit his lips to prevent
without seeimi' you, Si many tedious i a different
.expression feeling, mid
hours Iwtweea us! 0, 1 should pine after a silence of some length, said—
to a skeleton in your iibsence! Will you promise me to take the
Sin hien hor fooling
Ito\y. thong-II the distance bet‘vecn
them. must be. doubled, and doubled
again, should he lie called to Washing - -
ton, and though his ahsenee mu-4 he
for months instead of weeks, the
thought caused tint the
tine, and gave rise to not even ;1 !
In a S4,llt•lit2(l mire, il u w a rd
:-,llll—' But, my dear llelen, how
would you get along during Inv ah
t-enee, should 1 be called :May
c;tros mint nercs,:itily be "Teatly nut
' The swine good p'ro's idence,' she
replied, 'that has hitherto guarded me,
will (11l SO, I trust, to the end of my.!
days. I feel uo apprehension.'
HoiYard's disquietude was in
exact proportion to Helen's self-pus
s•ssion: but she could not endure to
hate it discovered, and arose hid
rolun. Probably the pride of most
men revolts from the expression of i
deep emotion, particularly when they
are conscious they have been in the
wrong. Much as Mr. Howard, had
-done, this was the very thing he had.
left unduly'. He could he very kind
:Ind attentive, but Cu/id not stoop to
hai'e beet/ to blam'e; pray pZir
don me. •
The election cairn' ulf, and Mr. Ho
ward was the successful candidate. Ho
could not but be , rratilied at 'the In Inet
ust conferred On hint, yet the idea of
leaving. his wife while her feeliuc's
were in their present siate, caused him
untitteruble anxiety. He conjecturod,
too, that her . liealth was less Jinn than
tormerly. thourrii she made . 110 corn
-1,1,11a; acknowl
edge no indiqVosition, even When he
o , ,citoti'ly Made .inquirios on ,the
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Lest possiblv care of your health ?1
'Surely. there, is little need of ex
actiinr such a p&onisti from a routher,•'
answered Helen. !--11 feel that inc life i•
is of soar value to My little ones; and
of course it a duty to do all I can to
preserve it.' . .
Ile thus ref, rring to the children,
laah as the ! Aelthive objects of his
int crest and her own, Helen coin
phi elv chbsed the lips of her 'husband -
when he w(ml.l have expressed 'Ten
derness to herself. Her dignity and
reserve SCCIIICti to form a maglit circle
around her, over which he liiund
iniss. kifidness of
her actions, and the unvarying, cohl
ness o'f her inanner; her freedom of
expressing her opinions, and h e r con
cealment of her opinions, kept ,Mr.
TlC;ward in a coirtant state of wonder
and excitement, and gaVe rise to such
conflicting . emotions, and such contra
dictory thoughts, that one could not
uht...in utterance before iiiposite
had driven it away.
the children with you,' said
Mr. Howard, while vet at the break
fast table, 'von will feel less solitary
tinin myself, separated from all tlat-i
hold dear.' . .
You will not, you must, not feel
solitary,' 5,4 ' Von' must irive
your mind 'to your country, 'and in
discharging . yons duties to, a patriot
and statesman, you will find enough.
to engross, your heart. ; .And .bosides,
who can talk of solitude in the midst
of Washington *society?'
'The mind' is its own palace;' said
Mr.; Howard,- ‘a,,4 ime •m.iy*
• lode in u"rowd
Both Ilushandand wii,,...rcnuti . ;(J.l
'1 ; and in a 'shojt time they were
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yeutit,.ip the ,bosuni of her ftither's
family,!, h9w sonny and- how; joyfully
the first yeas,Of her married life,'lthw
'dark the clonds that had more recently
.overshadowed her ! For this wlid was
to blame ?. Her natural ,freedom front
a self justifying spirit, together with
the fearful thought that she was - soon
to appear briftlr her final .judge; dis
'Ruled her to:;coudemn herself. Still
justice-asserted her light, and Helen
was conscious that to please, her hus
band and render hint happy, had been
the first . object of her heart. Yet, hot
-Iwithstanding, this she was willing to
• believe that slothad often• . tiiven.hint
I just cause for displeasure., With .ip
teusefanxiety site reviewed the last
year and ,a half and asked herself, what
site done fOlj his happiness ' While
I her affection fbr him had been 'llov
plant.. • She could tind!ito.speciabneg
-1 lect of `duty of which to accuse herself
l•—y'et. the remembrance of ditties
1 hearth.;:ts p.erfornied giVes little satis
factitin=an-d 'ti, Helen,' the whole
seemed a dark,and troubled,and guilty
i dream. Now that she:was a tea fillt; ,-
I. it left a gloom and painful . impression
' ou her mind. .
• And while she had, inthis unfeel
ing,,.
manner, been discharging hercon
jugal &hies, what had been Mr. How
ard's• deportment .4vard,her /. - The
prospect of her own :dissolution, pro
duced on, : llelen'snund much the same,
effeet that the death . of her husband
would have •dco. • - His increaSiter
gentleness, his --forbearance—whicll
had hitherto remained entirely. unfelt
and. unnoticed, came throngingon her
nternory ; and. at once the Move-11,4,f
her youth, the-idol of her early wedded
life, was restored tic her in all its per
fection ! Her heart swelled and gushed
fbrth in. love, in gratitude, and peni
tence. '..111:: recent letters were all
brought forth, and repertis•ed, and ail
thoSe expressions of love and tender
ness that hail. liccure. ' fallon an out '‘a
rock; and caused her heart to thrill
with emotion—‘ Alt,' thought she • how
etinstant has that heart been to me,-in
spite of all my ctildnes, my heartles:s
indifference, and sometimes, I fear, toy
disdain !'• • .
. .
Etir a long time after Mr. Howard's
departure from Lorne, Helen felt no
pater on avrotott ~r his absence, but
now she felt t loneliess as in flintier
days. I was she to endure the . ,
remainder of , th_eot tedious session of 1
Congress ; alas.- c Would she still he 1
an inhabitant of earth when it should
come to a cles'e ? but notwithstanding
this retiwake.ned regret on. account of
herlinshand's absence—and the aWful
solemnity of her situation--flow, sweet
did she find it again to love—love with
tenderness . and ardor ! :and with fer
vent gratitude did she raise her 'eyes
and thoughts to-Heaven. that her heart
i..was aroused front its lethergy. .
' Helen's next letter to Mr. Howard
was very
,different from those which
had preceeded it. She did not express
in direct terms her new found love.—
but its spirit breathed it in every line:
Towards the ;close site mentioned hav
ing takeu a severe cold, and gave ;Mite
imitation of Dr. Miller's opinion, as to
the result. . She subscribed herself;
Your own true grateful and stifec-
She was truly ingenious in trying to I titillate Helen.' fhiS was the last
close her letters with courtesy, and yet letter she ever sent him, though ; not
without any of that tenderness ex- the last she wrote.
pressed which always precedes • the .Toy and grief . contended in Mr.
signature of a NN , i le , when writing to a Howard's heart as he read this epistle;
husband she hives. In receiving and j joy exquisite and unalterable, that the
writing letters; in tending to her chil-"I affection ofilais. with was restored.to
dren, and in reading; and iii the ire- hint ; for lie knew her too well to have
ducat visits of her father and Doctor i a shadow of doubt respecting her sin-
Miller, Helen's time passed away with- ceritty ; ' and grief and alarm the•mOst
out weariness or discontent. I harrowing-with regard to her health.
; But though scarcely aware of it her- He had stronger proof of her- indispo
self, Helen was much, altered. , Her sition and debility than any expris
-friends laughed at her for pining -on lion made use °fin her •letter. The
account of Mr: Howard's'absence, but tremulousness of the hand that had
Dr. Miller looked on Witlh deep soh- written it Was but too obViouss. It
citude. In the -beginning •of Fara- waS entirely dithyrent from Hele n's ary, Helen took a drive with the chil- neat and beautiful hand writing When
dren when the air was 11.1111 id from lin usual health. On the instant, he
the desolVing snots, and she tuuk a . wrote to Dr.. Miller to learn the worst
verV.Severe cold. Its fatal effects were he had to fear. Ten tedious days must
. .
soon visible, she was at once confined Pass before he ceuld hope to receive
to Iter room. Still Helen was not an answer, for at that time the 'mails
alarintr.d, but Calculated to lie' out were conveyed in lumbering stage
again in a few days. It devolved upon coaches, and to a.lleart racked by tux-
Dr. Milhir to
_give the alarm to • her iety they seemed to travel . a .snail's
father. He pronounced her to be in I pace.
a hectiC, and; 'the father Letra:/m..7 to - WhenDt;Miller's • letter arrived it 1
his daughter.ihe,D. opinion.;. At More than confirmed. - Mr. Howard's
first it was a stunning • blow to her,— worst, apprehensions. The Doctor
then she-thought that the Dr. was nu- 'had, actually, begnu.,to write before be
neee.zsarially • alarmed.; but the fe- received his friend's letter. lie told
membranee of her' Mother, hrOthers, him that Heleii•was:' undoubtedly in a
•and her sisters rushed upon her mind; confirmed hectic • and that her life
kniked'fairly at . her own symptoms, could not be protracted ni manriveeks.
and felt her doom was surely,. sealed. , Mr. Howard's -re.lultition was atnuce
The confusiOn, the rush of thought taken. He asked and obtained leave
which was inCident to the first shuck of
t absencir filitn congress; ,and affer
. -sim passed away, and - Helen calmly the unavoidable'"intei'vention of one
set herself to _examineher present po- I day from the re'relpt of the Dr's. letter,
sition, and as the Scriptures .express the cenameneed hishomewitrd journey.
it, set her house in order
,preparatoqAmple time had he to reproach Inui
to the last change.. The first, thing ••
t .
self and every hOdy - else, while.seated
:t,V;•: to.review her pa:t efe,, J.. t ouking lin tr*ceach,' the horses rtpp'edi'ed:to,
1,) c 4 from 'li!ii:?:ig -the sluohivr - ts i t'l liiM to be-in a leisurely walk'. " Wily
(..e.ildi W..: :Anew --: rounded her, how. had-he been so:niexctnably negligent
blight tl - tid ehee..: ; appeared her as nit suoiler.to have written, Lv DK.
aroused by the horn of the stage; coach
..... •
sounding. at the dour. The, table. was
th:sertedin a moment ; and afteithrow
ili,g the stage-waiter his baggage', - Mr.
Howard returned lit the parlor, and
closed : the door. 'The bitter-moment
,has at luegth said, - We
must part,— Helen, in pity say
that wo . part friend's?
• Friends!' reitin ate& Helen=--ih • a
voice as cheerful as she now ever spoke
in—fur the light, glad tone of earlier
days had vanishetraway'together with
the wretched smileS'`that had accom
panied it Friends! assuredly
.du! , and most sincerely:do I wish• you
succes§ as will leave you nothing to
There- aro moments of our liV'eF,
when the-most bitter wailings of grief'
would be sweeter.to the ear • than .the
gladdest strains Of . music, and thus it
Was; in the present instant with Mr.
Howard. Helens undisguised indif
feil,mce even at the moment of parting,
wrung every fibre ofliis heart,
- With a look of intense. feeliiig
turned to the children, and pressing
them to his bosom,Aniumured a •few
words to each. 'As • lie repluad . the
youngest to the carpet, Helen presened
her hand. He took it without uttering
a sylable, pressed it firmly,: and then
darting from the'house, seated himself
in the coach which the neat ,moment
rolled away.
It was toward 'the latter part of
Novendier when .111 r. Howard left
home, and for a great number of weeks
there was no very markinl change in
Helen's health. 511 c was-really hap
pier than she had been for many long
months—for now she had to perform
aio heartless duties ; 'she had to pay
fin heartless attentions. A burden was.
, removed from her mind. She was a
very tender mailer; and during her,
husbaud's absence she resolved to
foreyo till s,;c . o,ty 11111C11 as possible,
and devote herself to the comfort and
education of het children, -and' to the
cUlthittion of her own mind. She re
ceived three letters a wcek from Mr.
Howard. They were-full of. interest,
as he detailed all that he saw or heard
which could either entertain or instrnct
her. There was,.too, a peculiar kind
of tenderness about them. ,\Xlienever
his own feelings were the subject, lie
wrote like a timid lover, as if. in doidd
whether what. lie said would aid his
suit or not. In each letter he urged
her to toll him evervthing concerning
herself and the children, as the most
trifling incidents-4en the prattle of
.thi, little one was full of interest to
him.
Helen wrote to Mr. Howard Often,
told kept him well informed:as. to all
that was in progress among ,bis friends
and acquaintances; she told ~ 11im all
that was communicable' about the chil
dren, their improvement, their fond
and interesting quost ions about their
father, and of their impatience for his
return; but of herselfsho said nothing,
except to answer 'his direct inquiries
for her health, and this she did in the
most indefinite manner possible. She
was as well us usual—`health much .
the same,' or 'there was no essential
change,';=-was the whole =omit. of the
matter.
;Why had not Mr. Atwood iu- garticularly,do we love
formed him of liis daughter'S danger?' to touch and look at those things which
Thee, together with 'other - thanglits Itave not been removed from the po
far more. -bitter and grievous, 'were wldch the' lost one placed
continually revolving in his mind. them. Above and beyond all'iS the
;With rega,rd,,,to ,Mr., Atwood and value attached to any memoranda, and
Dr. Miller, thetast . was that they both diary, •in which the thoughts ttnd feel
knew the frequency of Helen' letters lags of the departed Lave been last
to Mr. - 1-ToNVlirtt - and' had tio'idea of I t ecorded.
thetinerance under which he labdred, ' Vie of - Mr. Howardi.s . first occupa
else they would. certainly have given tions when left to himself, 'after the in
itial:the truth,terment of his wife, was to examine
.•
;Sio NV * Mr, HoWdrd's - progress i the contents of his .secretary and writ- .
'corepared'with the present rates ing, desk, the, keys of which had been
of: locomotion, be: at - length.rettithed last turned by her own band, He suf
. the place of his residence iusafety. fered MA.' a scrip of paper thar btfre,
He occupied the, bai;k seat of-the moil I the-mark of her hand to pass Unread:
coach, and . as it drove up to the post- llu futitid much that was interesting ;
uflii e, lie invOluntarily drew' himself S much that. was calculated to exalt his
:• back, dreading to-read the fatal news wife in his opinion in respect to the
• the - countenance of any who.might qualitieS of both her head and heart. .
4. perchance get a view ; of hint. Front lln searching the desk, he foinid in its
his partial concealment he glanced most secret compartments, a large
arotind and with others, saw Dr. Mil- f packet, ; carefully enveloped in white
ler 'a few rods distant; coming to- i paper and tied with a riband. This
wards the carriage. In his eagerness he laud aside until he had examined all -
:to read the doctor's I : ace . he7leaned "the loose mid apparently less 'impor
ts little forward and their eyes met. f tantpapers. This ifone he took the
"Thank
,hcaven!" exclaimed, • tile I chain which:Helen nstalto occupy, and
doctor as lie to the Side . ef the placing it at her table, proceeded to
.conch--"thank • raven you have come!" j open the , paeket, It contained, all
Howard: actually..pit:Ted- for tae letters lie had written to his wife
hreath, and could with difficulty' emit- before their marriage; one written by
patid his, voice to say—"then I am i her to melt of her clvildren, to he
not - tou ' handed to them at a future day; and
"No, no," said "the, doctor, " she last . , of all, .one to li4iuself.. , This he
yet lives," and the coachman at that i Opened with tremblimr. heart. It way
instant drawing up the -reins, Dr. Mil- '.dated a feW days later than tit' last he
lot took the seat at his side and was, •re6.lved from her while in Washing:
driven to Mr. Howard's. . too; but it was written at interval.,
'Tell late,' said :\ ir.'Howard, as he and with evident efibrt. The writing
alighted at his own dOor and grasped f testified how weak and tremulous wa-,
Lis friehd's.' hand, 'what have I to the hand that guided the pen.;, It wag
hope, and what to filar f.)hlowS:
The doctor - shook his- head. 'The i .11 . // dear, .(I,,tr Ifte.vband: •
haS made dreadful havoc.with The days of your Own Helen are
her strength,' said he; within the numbered and almost finished. Ve:t- •
last week she has sunk rapidly. I terday I solemnly adjured Dr. Millet
sometimes feared that all would be to till me the worst of env case; and
bet;,re your could reach us.' he say.; that- a few weeks must Mid
'Wild she know. me?' asked Mr. my earthly course. And must we
Howard.: - Part • fore vcr and so soon ? The very
yes—but• she will 'hardly be morning of my - life is scarcely past,
able to speak to You. Sinceye:Aurally and vet lam summoned away! How
she has spike': . but one IY:Ord at a j shall . I bear to leave my husband and
time, - and that in a whisper. • nut I childreti
must Intsttin to prepare her to meet
you. 1 have Sometimes thought that
the hope of seeing you has helped I,
keep her alive.' .•
'The doctor left the room, and Mr.
Howat d paced the fioor,,with sensa
tions "which the feeling heart may (-Ml
ceiye, but which nu one should attempt
to describe. It. seemed an age betsn 0
Dr. Miller returned, jut he came at
length, and taking :his friend's arm
within hi, to lead him to the chamber,
saia=.
compose
, vonrself, my dear
sir; r'erneinber Mrs. Howard is not
in a. situation 'to bear strong excite-
count.'
Mr. Howard spoke not; but tin
doctor felt Ins whole frame tremble'as
he- leaned on Lip arm. , Helen's eyes
Were:fastened on the door a:4 it opened.
They sparkled like diamond , ;and
her, cheeks were like the, ruse. To the
Unexperienced eye she might have
appeared the picture of health as she
was .of beauty. She made an effort to
"raise herself, but in vain ; and by a
forcible grasp of his arm, the doctor
constrained Mr. Howard to k uirnss
theiloor, instead .of springing towards
her. When lie had led him, quietly
across the room and seen his wife's
hands clasped in his, he left them. ,
What a World of grielcan, the Ito
mean h endure at the satire moment
of tin e! How • .sweet, yet how ago-
Maim , the meeting! • 11oW did Helen
drink in the words' of hive and temler
mess that her • husband murnanrcd in
her :, ears! how soothing were- the
r kisses impressed on her fevered brow!
find how precious Were the single
voids of whispered hive that fell from
her lnivering lips!' ah, .treasure to
the solace 'of years! •
Beyond expectation, Helen lingered
a week after Mr. H.'s return; and he
scarcely left het day or MOIL For
some time the children had been et
Mr. Atwood's, as • the • sight of them
seemed too exciting in their .mother's
pinking state; but once after their
fathers ryturn they were brought
• hot - tie to give and take the last pairing
As • the youngest child : Was.
taken from her, Helen looked : at the
father, looked. At the, , little ones,, and
then raised her tearful eyes' to one_ s,,
eh: - 'Words 'would have been usAiss
had she lieen'tible . to utter them. Her
then expressed far more than language
'could have.done, and its meauingw:as
engraved on her husband's soul.. 'lwo
• days a4er parting with her children,
Helen" breathed •cult her spirit; While
her head reclined on:tlio - bosom otlher
-husbansk peacefully and gently as
an: ; infaut•falle! .asleep, in its mother's
arms
i *.
In the solittide r , the utter desolation
that fullo - Ars the.,la.st. 4adlitlice:s to a
departed' friend, tiothing iti t so -Inatttral
as _to every „relic they have
"I •
=
For many long months past . my
heart has seemed as if cculgealed . in
my bosom. and looking back, all
seems like a troubled.dream. Have I .
been in a kind of sleep.? Thank
Ticavim, I am now awake! and my
heart heats with fervent love and Brat:
itude, though soon to cease beating
l;)rover • .
•Dr. Miller came in and caught me
in the act of writing; and he perem-_
' torily forbias it. But how can I en
tirely refrain Verhaps, I may never
speak to you agrlin; and I think it will
be a consolation to you to recoive
!otter as from the grave of her you
have loved so faithfully. At least,
It is a comfort to-fie to write, and tell
you again - and again of the love and
gratitude that swell my heart. I think
of.you, and pray fur you anti the dear
i :children all the time. • • •
( My dear husband, you were my
idol. I lived only t4r you and myself.
Happy-0, how happy .in your love.
' 1 dur , ‘ot the hand that 'loaded me
with .. "'benefit.,'—that - showered bless--
ins in such profiFdon upon me! I
7 ,
needed all the chastisement I have
received, to rouse me from forgetful
, ite.s and ingratitude. But U, what
cause tin-lihmiliation; sorrow and re
gret—that Mail my heart strings were -
breakihr:,, I shoUld never think of con
svere in! , myself to Him, who has chine
so much for me! - Dearest husband,
avoid ins example as you would avoid
the pain of remorse, and perhaps,-find
destruction. . • -
I have been a Source of great un
happiness to ' you, ,my dear husband,
ever since we were united. Had you
Bound a . wife free from such defects us
I unforttinately had, - how happy you
'lnn! been!: My
. only consolation is,
that it was my sincere and constant
wish to please .. you r howeveelar I.
came short of it. . 0. forgive me, for
every pang I ever cost you—and
think of me with kindness and lenity,
when my many' imperfections can
trouble yon no more ! . •
.1 know I need not enjoin it on- you,.
my dvaresthusband, to be kind to my
father;. and to consider
very
during
lit;., , as a parent. It.is touching
to see him'how. He retains his wont
ed! soll-c.onimand hut - looks heart=
broken at the prospect of losing his
last remaining child, 0, strive tu con
sole him in his utter loneliness! 'May
he be sustained' by Ahnighty strength.
'Ali, how . unworthy .am. I dull this
. •iove,and,regret!--- -
• . « ; • • •
. .
Perinit me to ictitte,t, dearp",t,
,that
you will praile the children when they
do well. The human heart wed
6w . ffinctulation. for its encouragainent
in the path of 'rectitude ; and wo.huro
the example ui our blessed •Saviur,,atill
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NO.' 11